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i wanna fall apart. i want to just disappear and not hav to deal with anything. i want to pretend its not happening to me. i always thought i was a good person, i hav a good heart and almost if not always hav good intentions in the things i do. but i keep looking back on things and they somehow fall back to my fault. something i said or believed started shit that should hav never been brought up or my business in the first place. i just wish everyone would be open with everyone else. would just own up to what they do when the others arent around. i wish that everyone could talk about everything as a group and not hav ppl completely lost cuz all theyve been hearing is lies. i wish i could confront a few ppl about things but i cant. i cant deal with that confrontation and what may follow that. i guess we r fine the way they are.
ive also found out that someone ((who i guess i trusted but now that i think about it never really did)) has been telling one of my best friends alot of shit that i never did. shes never said nething to me about it so i never knew she thought what she does. so just so you know..whatever hes said is most likely a lie. im just done with him.. i want him gone. {its not jon}
i guess no one really knows how much it effects me.
ive also found out that someone ((who i guess i trusted but now that i think about it never really did)) has been telling one of my best friends alot of shit that i never did. shes never said nething to me about it so i never knew she thought what she does. so just so you know..whatever hes said is most likely a lie. im just done with him.. i want him gone. {its not jon}
i guess no one really knows how much it effects me.