smells like teen spirit
so i've been thinking a lot lately about how i got in this position and it all comes down to this:
i think i'm a hardass. i hate depending on people, and i hate feeling like i need anyone. ive always wanted to be as independent as i could possibly be, to show everyone that i can get my own things and didnt need to ask anyone for anything. i wanted to prove that to myself and i figured that if i could leave everything and just go do my own thing that i would prove that all i need is myself. and im learning that trying to prove something to myself for my own ego and pride is eventually just going to ruin me. because i do need people in my life, and i do need people to lean on, and its sad that im just realizing this when its too late to do anything about it. so basically this whole situation is my own fault. for taking everything i had for granted. ive lost so much from being here, and i honestly thought that it wouldnt effect me this much. buts its taking a toll on me like nothing i have ever encountered before, and i dont think ive been this lost since my parents got divorced. im wasting the best year of my life for my own pride, and losing myself along the way. lose your friends, lose your family, lose yourself.
what did you expect to find?
was it something you left behind?
she cries her life is like
some movie in black and white
dead actress faking lines
over and over and over again she cries
Dont fall away
and leave me to myself
Dont fall away
and leave love bleeding in my hands..
i think i'm a hardass. i hate depending on people, and i hate feeling like i need anyone. ive always wanted to be as independent as i could possibly be, to show everyone that i can get my own things and didnt need to ask anyone for anything. i wanted to prove that to myself and i figured that if i could leave everything and just go do my own thing that i would prove that all i need is myself. and im learning that trying to prove something to myself for my own ego and pride is eventually just going to ruin me. because i do need people in my life, and i do need people to lean on, and its sad that im just realizing this when its too late to do anything about it. so basically this whole situation is my own fault. for taking everything i had for granted. ive lost so much from being here, and i honestly thought that it wouldnt effect me this much. buts its taking a toll on me like nothing i have ever encountered before, and i dont think ive been this lost since my parents got divorced. im wasting the best year of my life for my own pride, and losing myself along the way. lose your friends, lose your family, lose yourself.
what did you expect to find?
was it something you left behind?
she cries her life is like
some movie in black and white
dead actress faking lines
over and over and over again she cries
Dont fall away
and leave me to myself
Dont fall away
and leave love bleeding in my hands..