...moving lj-house
I’ve moved lj-house, I’ve tweaked my name very slighty so if you see me defriending you in one moment and friending you in another, bear with me.
How I got here?
I found LJ because of the addiction that was Queer as Folk which I watched quietly on my own for four years. One day whilst browsing around, I found fanfic and then the fandom. I wish I had found it earlier. Watching the final season in the company of others was pretty special and pretty well timed considering that I couldn’t have coped with 513 on my own.
My absolute favourite experience of QAF:
the very first glimpse of Brian Kinney - "wow, who is this guy?" He stole my heart in a heartbeat - his beauty was irresistible, but so was the vulnerability, kindness and generosity he was fiercely hiding behind the self-confidence, arrogance and sarcasm. And over time, he grew into some kind of wonderful...
It took me a little while to see Justin as more than a young kinda-sweet blond kid, but then he took a little of my heart too. I think I “got” Brian&Justin around the same time that Brian did. And then they became some kind of wonderful too...
Others loved: Ted and Emmett, separately, not Temmett. And Cynthia, Daphne and Jennifer. As for the rest of the QAF family, I liked them rather than loved them, at different times, for different reasons - and at other times, for many reasons, I didn’t like them very much at all…
I *did not love 513* (huge understatement) and spent many months recuperating from the experience of feeling Brian’s pain, saying goodbye to those he loved - Gus… "goodby son" - Justin… "fading away from beneath Brian" - and then Brian, alone..."on his bed, in his loft, at Babylon".
Lots of doses of fanfic were required to fix the indescribable emotional response to the mess that was the finale. Others saw it differently, I wish I did, but we can only see it and feel it the way we see it and feel it… different experiences push different emotional buttons. Brian’s pain and losses pushed lots of mine.
Why I stayed?
I stayed because the folks of the fandom are "all-right".
I love that this place and space keeps the love of qaf-brian-justin-brian&justin alive.
And I'm interested in Gale and Randy’s careers post-QAF so I love to read all the latest news through the kindness of those who share - it's much appreciated. Randy’s got a couple of things coming up, but I’m *a concerned citizen of the quietness surrounding Gale*
I’m sometimes quiet when real life or other interests intrude, but I'm a part of this still, I always come back…
♥