* C *

[dreamaway23]

Honestly I just wanted to say....last night was the worst night of my life * C * I was just sitting down the whole time...I didn't even want to get up...I was looking out of the window...in the booth. I swear I thought we weren't going to go and it made my day. I went and it's over with. Thank GOD it was her 21st....I'm never stepping into a bar in my life again even if it's a linkin park concert...bc I don't want to be around a bunch of annoying drunk chaldean guys....honestly. They are so annoying...Did you see Joey how he was watching over us...I wish you were there too ya know...I swear * C * I wish you were here my life would be so different I know it would be so different...all around every way....Honestly. I need you so much right now....when I got home last night it was the worst...did you see that? I swear I was ready to break...I love you so much * C * I don't care about anyone...or anything I want everyone out of my life but my girls and cousins I love them so much more then myself I do...and always will...please guide me protect me I need you the most.

love you
xo