so sad...
idk...whats wrong...but i m crying so bad...my stomach hurts...i m just so sad...everything is so not right...everything was never spouse to be like this...ever i m so sad..i just cant wait for the day that I can just tell you that i m so happy * C * thats all i want is for one day to be like thank you so much i love you so much i m so happy and smiling ya know i know u want me to be happy and not be sad i know i m being so selfish and i m making u so sad right now but i cant smile i m so sad i cant my stomach hurts and i m breathing really awful....idk....i swear....why now........... why..........why now...........why couldnt it been later...why couldnt u have let me feel it so much more then ...then now whats now have to do with anything ya know....like...i m so alone...i've been so alone for so long.... nothing feels right nothing ever feels right its always so not right...please just tell me what is going on...whats next ya know i just wish i knew...i mso sorry * C for being liek this its just so hard for me i m typing so fast i cant even think right but i m so sad....i miss so many things i wish everything could just be different i just wanna be happy and i know i will one day be so happy i m gonna wait for that ya know..i m gonna wait for whatever it is...i mean God wants it to be like this right.... I dont wanna go out today...i just wanna go home and sleep...i really dont wanna talk...anymore...i m done....mom is calling me...gtg love you