End of the Holiday Hiatus
Today was very laid-back instead of the usual hustle and bustle of our weekends. Rylin and Ayden werent cooperative last night. Jessica woke up around 4:30am as Rylin was done with sleep. The two of them headed downstairs at 5:30 with Ayden joining them about an hour later. Its days like these where I pour my heart out to Jessica for all the love and selflessness she has towards the children when they wake up before the sun does. If she wouldve told me that she was going to entertain the babies, I wouldve joined her but she didnt even wake me.
Im looking forward to work getting back to normal after the holiday hiatus. People will finally be through with their vacations, theyll be focused, and Ill be getting e-mails that are written by people instead of computer generated status updates. Sadly, Im not looking forward to meetings, status and project updates, and the need to reassure people that everything is working as expected. Ill get back to a couple projects Ive been working diligently on but instead of blissful silence, Ill have to endure the distractions of being outside the holiday season. It may sound like I loathe distractions but sometimes they are good to aide mental refocusing.
This weekend I planned to complete my entrance essay for Regis University. I never finished it and I fear I wont. College scares me to death. Ive done it all too many times and I never finish. The group-work, papers, and tests are the sources of my fear. I hate to fail and every moment I sit in a lecture hall or classroom brings insurmountable fear that Ill get anything less than an A. Worse is that I have to sit with other students who are ten to fifteen years my junior who have never had a wife and family, a job with real responsibility, and worse, mortgage payments, insurance payments, and bills. I need to suck it up and write the silly essay. The requirements are simple: five hundred words, five paragraphs, using proper grammar and style, and it must discuss a topic of their choice. Ill write it tomorrow.
Finally, Im going to the gym tomorrow evening. Im a little apprehensive about using a few of the machines. The last time I used those machines I pulled a number of muscles in my arms. Not only did I hurt for a week, it felt like I was going to keel over and die every time I lifted my arm more than an inch above my shoulder. Maybe I never used those muscles before. Ill find out tomorrow.
Im looking forward to work getting back to normal after the holiday hiatus. People will finally be through with their vacations, theyll be focused, and Ill be getting e-mails that are written by people instead of computer generated status updates. Sadly, Im not looking forward to meetings, status and project updates, and the need to reassure people that everything is working as expected. Ill get back to a couple projects Ive been working diligently on but instead of blissful silence, Ill have to endure the distractions of being outside the holiday season. It may sound like I loathe distractions but sometimes they are good to aide mental refocusing.
This weekend I planned to complete my entrance essay for Regis University. I never finished it and I fear I wont. College scares me to death. Ive done it all too many times and I never finish. The group-work, papers, and tests are the sources of my fear. I hate to fail and every moment I sit in a lecture hall or classroom brings insurmountable fear that Ill get anything less than an A. Worse is that I have to sit with other students who are ten to fifteen years my junior who have never had a wife and family, a job with real responsibility, and worse, mortgage payments, insurance payments, and bills. I need to suck it up and write the silly essay. The requirements are simple: five hundred words, five paragraphs, using proper grammar and style, and it must discuss a topic of their choice. Ill write it tomorrow.
Finally, Im going to the gym tomorrow evening. Im a little apprehensive about using a few of the machines. The last time I used those machines I pulled a number of muscles in my arms. Not only did I hurt for a week, it felt like I was going to keel over and die every time I lifted my arm more than an inch above my shoulder. Maybe I never used those muscles before. Ill find out tomorrow.