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"maybe some women aren't meant to be tamed", or however that quote goes. this heartbroken heart-breaker may be throwing in the towel on all relationships from here on out. for the sake of being emotional on a [no longer linked to profile] site, i digress.
as frustrating as it is, it seems i am all too human. never satisfied with whats given to me, always wanting something else, never living in the moment...here i am. on few occasions i have put everything in me into a relation. shortly following each of those few occasions, it was over. i guess i don't understand how marriages and long-term relationships work. it seems to me that unless people are lying, one person always loves the other more than that person loves them back. then, the one who loves less starts feeling smothered and maybe even irked by this, in turn, causing them to be short with them, break plans, and eventually cut all ties. the other person is then left to long for this person even more.
what if it's not possible to find someone that loves you just as much as you love them, and STILL have a desire to be around one another? i have met a few people in my life that i could spend years, or maybe eternity with. unfortunately, i am not that person for them. it's brutal, how the cookie crumbles sometimes. and as much as i'd like to think less of them for breaking my heart, i can't. i can't because i have done my own share of heart-breaking. i understand what it's like to have someone wonderful in front of you, and be incapable of loving them. it's enough to drive a person mad, worrying about all of this.
this is me giving up on worrying. if i haven't married by 26, i'm adopting.
as frustrating as it is, it seems i am all too human. never satisfied with whats given to me, always wanting something else, never living in the moment...here i am. on few occasions i have put everything in me into a relation. shortly following each of those few occasions, it was over. i guess i don't understand how marriages and long-term relationships work. it seems to me that unless people are lying, one person always loves the other more than that person loves them back. then, the one who loves less starts feeling smothered and maybe even irked by this, in turn, causing them to be short with them, break plans, and eventually cut all ties. the other person is then left to long for this person even more.
what if it's not possible to find someone that loves you just as much as you love them, and STILL have a desire to be around one another? i have met a few people in my life that i could spend years, or maybe eternity with. unfortunately, i am not that person for them. it's brutal, how the cookie crumbles sometimes. and as much as i'd like to think less of them for breaking my heart, i can't. i can't because i have done my own share of heart-breaking. i understand what it's like to have someone wonderful in front of you, and be incapable of loving them. it's enough to drive a person mad, worrying about all of this.
this is me giving up on worrying. if i haven't married by 26, i'm adopting.