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this morning, when i finally got up, i felt unbeleivably optimistic. i slept until 11:45 after staying up till 3 chatting to a. i knew it was a bad idea at the time, i shouldve gone to bed at 11, or even ten. five hours of waste resulting in me being *tired*. oh god and im already missing him. last night he really made me smile, so hard, as he does. he says he hasnt seen his family in almost six months...which is, in itself a little strange, as he saw his parents on his birthday - 1 april.
i'm glad actualy, that he's finally leaving, cos the whole obsessing about him thing is making me tired. i need to stop thinking about the fact that i wont see him for a whole month.
what is love?
cos i think im falling for him.
last night, he sent me orange roses, a picture. and he said he's miss me. and he didnt think i'd miss him.
it was just so good for him to talk to me a little.
i want to kiss him. i want to lie with him, i want to spend my time with him.
after all my shit, i think i am actually worth it. i hope he sees it the same way.
back to my optimism...tyd raak min. but today things are really gona happen. he's gone and all i have now is me, and my life. which i have to somehow fix, do the best i fucking can. i had a plan, but i dont think its good for me to be dwelling on what i shouldve done, it just hurts.
i will make june mine.
i'm glad actualy, that he's finally leaving, cos the whole obsessing about him thing is making me tired. i need to stop thinking about the fact that i wont see him for a whole month.
what is love?
cos i think im falling for him.
last night, he sent me orange roses, a picture. and he said he's miss me. and he didnt think i'd miss him.
it was just so good for him to talk to me a little.
i want to kiss him. i want to lie with him, i want to spend my time with him.
after all my shit, i think i am actually worth it. i hope he sees it the same way.
back to my optimism...tyd raak min. but today things are really gona happen. he's gone and all i have now is me, and my life. which i have to somehow fix, do the best i fucking can. i had a plan, but i dont think its good for me to be dwelling on what i shouldve done, it just hurts.
i will make june mine.