a random hodgepodge of thoughts
I feel like life is unraveling a bit when just the other day I was feeling I had all my shit together. Work has been tough because there was nothing going on, now the new catalog has dropped AND my boss wants a bunch of different reports from me so suddenly I'm absurdly busy. Both of these extremes suck and have me wanting a vacation, or a new job, or maybe just a whole new life. Press reset button now please?
Save game: Y/N?
N.
I've decided I want to lose a bunch of weight. I haven't ever been as fit as I wish I was and since college its certainly gotten worse. So, given the success of my quit smoking mission (still running strong with only the occasional brief fall off the wagon, usually while drunk) I've decided to initiate mission: stop eating. Well, no, clearly not, but at least mission eat less. Given that I hate so very many foods (as in induces vomiting/throat clogging rather than just "I don't like this") theres a limited amount I can do as to eating healthier, though there are definitely steps I can take to be sure. So, I'm just going to have to go with eating less overall. I've been jogging, doing situps, and have started a lifting routine, but I think without cutting the intake the effects are not going to be as noticeable as I'd like. It'd be nice if this snow would go away though, it makes jogging suck. So here we go, mission fitness (no, for reals this time) is now a go.
I've noticed an odd thing about the past year and a half of my life. My trusted friend group has gone from being 90% female to being 90% male. I kind of miss the female side though, its way better overall for tough conversations.
A large part of this is, I think, the supa-emo crash following my breakup with Meredith a YEAR AND A FUCKING HALF AGO+ that still casts a shadow over my life. I alienated a bunch of people during that relationship by refusing to listen to them and managed to alienate even more by being a needy bitch when it all fell apart. Note to self: attempt to reconnect with female friends who give good advice.
I've invented a game. A game people seem to really like and keep asking me to play again. I have high hopes for it. Its the first game I've ever managed to invent thats really simple (its a game of placing stones on a board) and its far and away the best. More testing will hopefully ensue along with maybe throwing it at Sam and seeing if he can break it, he being good at that kind of thing.
I'm finally admitting to myself that really I'm not a Sociologist at heart but rather an Economist. An economist who hates economists, and economics. I've moved away from ideas like socialism and am instead doing a lot of investigating into how to level the economic playing field, not once, but constantly. I think that economic systems that don't provide for constant releveling are probably non-sustainable not to mention, in my opinion, inhumane. The problem is that as far as I can tell no one on earth who doesn't write things titled "My Manifesto about blowing shit up till we're all equal scrabbling about in the dirt" really writes about this topic. So, query, how does one create a new field, what does one have to do to be taken seriously?
Here ends by random babblings for the day.
Note to self: don't listen to music that makes you miss someone who doesn't exist and probably never really did.
Save game: Y/N?
N.
I've decided I want to lose a bunch of weight. I haven't ever been as fit as I wish I was and since college its certainly gotten worse. So, given the success of my quit smoking mission (still running strong with only the occasional brief fall off the wagon, usually while drunk) I've decided to initiate mission: stop eating. Well, no, clearly not, but at least mission eat less. Given that I hate so very many foods (as in induces vomiting/throat clogging rather than just "I don't like this") theres a limited amount I can do as to eating healthier, though there are definitely steps I can take to be sure. So, I'm just going to have to go with eating less overall. I've been jogging, doing situps, and have started a lifting routine, but I think without cutting the intake the effects are not going to be as noticeable as I'd like. It'd be nice if this snow would go away though, it makes jogging suck. So here we go, mission fitness (no, for reals this time) is now a go.
I've noticed an odd thing about the past year and a half of my life. My trusted friend group has gone from being 90% female to being 90% male. I kind of miss the female side though, its way better overall for tough conversations.
A large part of this is, I think, the supa-emo crash following my breakup with Meredith a YEAR AND A FUCKING HALF AGO+ that still casts a shadow over my life. I alienated a bunch of people during that relationship by refusing to listen to them and managed to alienate even more by being a needy bitch when it all fell apart. Note to self: attempt to reconnect with female friends who give good advice.
I've invented a game. A game people seem to really like and keep asking me to play again. I have high hopes for it. Its the first game I've ever managed to invent thats really simple (its a game of placing stones on a board) and its far and away the best. More testing will hopefully ensue along with maybe throwing it at Sam and seeing if he can break it, he being good at that kind of thing.
I'm finally admitting to myself that really I'm not a Sociologist at heart but rather an Economist. An economist who hates economists, and economics. I've moved away from ideas like socialism and am instead doing a lot of investigating into how to level the economic playing field, not once, but constantly. I think that economic systems that don't provide for constant releveling are probably non-sustainable not to mention, in my opinion, inhumane. The problem is that as far as I can tell no one on earth who doesn't write things titled "My Manifesto about blowing shit up till we're all equal scrabbling about in the dirt" really writes about this topic. So, query, how does one create a new field, what does one have to do to be taken seriously?
Here ends by random babblings for the day.
Note to self: don't listen to music that makes you miss someone who doesn't exist and probably never really did.