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don't let your shame bring you down my daughter.
the answer, jake, is no. no, i don't hate you. no, i’m not angry because of anything you did to me. but ultimately, jake, the answer is no. no, i can’t meet up with you this summer.
if what i’m about to say doesn’t serve as any clarification to my decision in your eyes, i understand. i’m purposefully trying to be vague, because i don’t want to affect your friendships with people and your very, very short summer in south carolina.
i make a lot of mistakes. i’ve hurt a lot of people, some intentional and some unintentional. i fail, a lot.
i know what it feels like to long for something, to want something so badly that a physical pain pulses through my chest. i know what it feels like to miss someone. i know this feeling, partly, because of you.
but recently, jake, something has happened that has made me very, very upset.
this has been the best summer of my life. everyday, i get out of bed and my wonder and excitement for the future grows in a way that i can’t even explain. i’ve been able to get to know my best friends, intimately. i’ve been able to feel connected to people in ways i haven’t been able to feel in a long time.
if i get specific, i get personal. i don’t want to hurt anyone, and i really don’t want to hurt you. can we build a mutual understanding of this? i’m happy, i want you to be happy. i know it can happen. and i know this is the only way...
the answer, jake, is no. no, i don't hate you. no, i’m not angry because of anything you did to me. but ultimately, jake, the answer is no. no, i can’t meet up with you this summer.
if what i’m about to say doesn’t serve as any clarification to my decision in your eyes, i understand. i’m purposefully trying to be vague, because i don’t want to affect your friendships with people and your very, very short summer in south carolina.
i make a lot of mistakes. i’ve hurt a lot of people, some intentional and some unintentional. i fail, a lot.
i know what it feels like to long for something, to want something so badly that a physical pain pulses through my chest. i know what it feels like to miss someone. i know this feeling, partly, because of you.
but recently, jake, something has happened that has made me very, very upset.
this has been the best summer of my life. everyday, i get out of bed and my wonder and excitement for the future grows in a way that i can’t even explain. i’ve been able to get to know my best friends, intimately. i’ve been able to feel connected to people in ways i haven’t been able to feel in a long time.
if i get specific, i get personal. i don’t want to hurt anyone, and i really don’t want to hurt you. can we build a mutual understanding of this? i’m happy, i want you to be happy. i know it can happen. and i know this is the only way...