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So I ended up seeing Paul yesterday at the Pops Concert. He looked better than I expected, but that was from far away. I tried to ignore that he was there but I just couldn't. I felt bad when I was talking to Prev cause I kept looking over at him. We caught eyes. I didn't know what to do so I just looked away, not meanly, but I just looked away, and turned my back to him. God I miss him. Now that I know how he felt after our breakup, I can't stop thinking about all the fun we could have had, but yet I've had so much fun without him. Jesus. Everytime I know he's around, I just do this.... freak out. I can't help it. I just want to say hi or something. I know he's a totally different person, Steph and Caitlin told me all about it the other night after they saw him at Craig's. Bah. It's gonna be a hard summer... but a great one all at the same time.