Starts off being pissy, goes to mildly sad, & gets better, I promise.
I hate assholes.
Especially Chris.
I don’t even know why I bother. It’s the same thing over and over with him. He’s not worth my time. It’s the last time I’ll try to be nice to him. I honestly hope college gives him a smack of reality so he can actually fucking grow up.
Me: "I know I never got to see you before you left because of reasons I'd rather not specify, but I just wanted to wish you good luck in school. I hope that you'll be able to see both sides of the situation and not think anything less of me because of it."
Him: "Go away dude. I couldn't think anything less of you than I do now."
Me: "Fuck you man. I know better now than to try to be nice to you."
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On another note:
I knew Paul and I wouldn't spend the rest of our lives together, but I can't stop thinking about him. I can't stop wanting to IM him. I actually can't stop IMing him. It would help if he answered once and a while, but no, he doesn't. Craig had a "jump off" party at his apartment last night. The one thing I couldn’t stop thinking about was, “I hope he doesn’t make out with a random girl.” It would just break my heart. I’m so scared of him being over me, but I’m not scared of me being over him. Strange how it turns out that way. I’m just so afraid of him being hurt. I never wanted it for him; never will. I think it’s more that he has the potential of getting so much more ass than me (not really, I think I’m the only girl who’s ever found him amazingly attractive.) because he’s in college, and I’m stuck here in this shithole of Brockton. But I keep telling myself- “Let destiny take its course. Things will happen over time, you just can’t control it.”
I have been keeping myself busy. Friday I went to his house to say bye, a hard goodbye, but a good goodbye, then hung around. It was also Steve’s last night in Brockton and I saw him at Wag’s. Saturday I went to Nantasket for the last time this year with my Aunt Michelle. I had fun. Got a really nice tan, with no sunscreen on mind you. Ha. Then I headed off to Wag’s, had dinner with her and her mom. We had to drive her mom home because she had 2 Cosmopolitans and Zinfandel Wine lol. Linda is soooo crazy when she’s drunk. I love her. We went back to her house, watched a little Instant Star and Degrassi on OnDemand and Kyle came over. I left around 8, went to Ashley’s around 9. I was supposed to stay at Wag’s but she got sick and fell asleep. Yesterday I went to Wag’s again to swim, and ended up taking care of her cuz she had a fever. I didn’t mind in the least. Then I went to Steph’s to have a movie night. I love the girls.
Today I went to my cousin's house in Fall River for the annual Labor Day cookout. Quite enjoyable. My niece and nephew went as well. I took TONS of pictures of them for photo and mi madre. My cousin Katelyn and I have plans to go see The Early November, Senses Fail, Saves the Day, and Say Anything October 27th. (Ashley that's the date just in case you forgot).
With every bad change, comes a good change. I’m thinking of dying my hair. Maybe dark with blonde streaks on top, maybe like a solid reddish color, more along the lines of orange. I just want something new and different. Something not plain, something like me; not plain lol. I’ve changed the way my body looks- I’ve lost 20 pounds over the course of the summer, and I’m so proud of myself for that. I just need something new. Any suggestions?
I’m finally going to apply for a job. My grandmother’s boyfriend brags all the time about how he’s going to get me a job at Christo’s since he’s there a lot with all the old folks. I’ve only met this man a grand total of 3 times. But I do not mind, if he gets me the job, he’ll be my favorite person ever. It’s sad though, when your grandmother can get more action than her 17 year old granddaughter- especially when she’s almost 70. I love her though.
We already have a game on Friday and band pictures Saturday. Senior year is going to be crazy, and I’m gonna love every minute of it… except for the whole learning part, which I’ll only have to endure for first semester thank god. Then it’s all fun and games from there!
Especially Chris.
I don’t even know why I bother. It’s the same thing over and over with him. He’s not worth my time. It’s the last time I’ll try to be nice to him. I honestly hope college gives him a smack of reality so he can actually fucking grow up.
Me: "I know I never got to see you before you left because of reasons I'd rather not specify, but I just wanted to wish you good luck in school. I hope that you'll be able to see both sides of the situation and not think anything less of me because of it."
Him: "Go away dude. I couldn't think anything less of you than I do now."
Me: "Fuck you man. I know better now than to try to be nice to you."
[edit]:
On another note:
I knew Paul and I wouldn't spend the rest of our lives together, but I can't stop thinking about him. I can't stop wanting to IM him. I actually can't stop IMing him. It would help if he answered once and a while, but no, he doesn't. Craig had a "jump off" party at his apartment last night. The one thing I couldn’t stop thinking about was, “I hope he doesn’t make out with a random girl.” It would just break my heart. I’m so scared of him being over me, but I’m not scared of me being over him. Strange how it turns out that way. I’m just so afraid of him being hurt. I never wanted it for him; never will. I think it’s more that he has the potential of getting so much more ass than me (not really, I think I’m the only girl who’s ever found him amazingly attractive.) because he’s in college, and I’m stuck here in this shithole of Brockton. But I keep telling myself- “Let destiny take its course. Things will happen over time, you just can’t control it.”
I have been keeping myself busy. Friday I went to his house to say bye, a hard goodbye, but a good goodbye, then hung around. It was also Steve’s last night in Brockton and I saw him at Wag’s. Saturday I went to Nantasket for the last time this year with my Aunt Michelle. I had fun. Got a really nice tan, with no sunscreen on mind you. Ha. Then I headed off to Wag’s, had dinner with her and her mom. We had to drive her mom home because she had 2 Cosmopolitans and Zinfandel Wine lol. Linda is soooo crazy when she’s drunk. I love her. We went back to her house, watched a little Instant Star and Degrassi on OnDemand and Kyle came over. I left around 8, went to Ashley’s around 9. I was supposed to stay at Wag’s but she got sick and fell asleep. Yesterday I went to Wag’s again to swim, and ended up taking care of her cuz she had a fever. I didn’t mind in the least. Then I went to Steph’s to have a movie night. I love the girls.
Today I went to my cousin's house in Fall River for the annual Labor Day cookout. Quite enjoyable. My niece and nephew went as well. I took TONS of pictures of them for photo and mi madre. My cousin Katelyn and I have plans to go see The Early November, Senses Fail, Saves the Day, and Say Anything October 27th. (Ashley that's the date just in case you forgot).
With every bad change, comes a good change. I’m thinking of dying my hair. Maybe dark with blonde streaks on top, maybe like a solid reddish color, more along the lines of orange. I just want something new and different. Something not plain, something like me; not plain lol. I’ve changed the way my body looks- I’ve lost 20 pounds over the course of the summer, and I’m so proud of myself for that. I just need something new. Any suggestions?
I’m finally going to apply for a job. My grandmother’s boyfriend brags all the time about how he’s going to get me a job at Christo’s since he’s there a lot with all the old folks. I’ve only met this man a grand total of 3 times. But I do not mind, if he gets me the job, he’ll be my favorite person ever. It’s sad though, when your grandmother can get more action than her 17 year old granddaughter- especially when she’s almost 70. I love her though.
We already have a game on Friday and band pictures Saturday. Senior year is going to be crazy, and I’m gonna love every minute of it… except for the whole learning part, which I’ll only have to endure for first semester thank god. Then it’s all fun and games from there!