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[dream_of_heaven]

yeah..this is how i feel right now*

i'm sorry im not perfect
i'm sorry im not beautiful
im sorry that i hurt you
im sorry that i put you thro what i did
im sorry were not friends
im sorry i dissapoint you
im sorry im not a better friend
im sorry im not your ex
im sorry ill never be the person you expect me to be
im sorry i have a mind of my own
im sorry im different from you
im sorry that i moved on
im sorry im not always there
im sorry i let that happen to you
im sorry for not listening
im sorry for not taking your advice
im sorry for not telling you what i felt
im sorry for holding back
im sorry for saying too much
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i want you to notice me
i want you to care
i want you to know how much you mean to me
i want you to see what i see when i look in your eyes
i want all this drama to end
i want the past back
i want you by my side
i want to mean something to someone
i want to fall in love
i want you to disappear
i want some answers
i want to know why the world has so much love & so much pain
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i hate who i was becoming
i hate how i let ppl manipulate me
i hate how you have control of my life
i hate how i couldnt be myself
i hate how i lost so much b/c of you
i hate how you judged me
i hate how you never gave him a chance
i hate how you always had a comment
i hate how you left me
i hate the person you became
i hate how your not around anymore
i hate not hearing you tell me you love me
i hate not going over for dinner
i hate not being the one you turn to
i hate liars
i hate how ppl put so much pressure on me
i hate how i cant get over you

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i wish i knew what i did wrong
i wish everything was the way it used to be
i wish i still had you
i wish i was little again
i wish i could change the past
i wish i could see into the future
i wish you knew how i felt
i wish you could feel all the pain that you've caused me
i wish the tables were turned
i wish some ppl would just die already
i wish you were happy for me just this once
i wish you were proud of me