Pills, speed, vodca, lambin, gack and green together = wonderfull mix
So i'm wasted.
Today my boss took me to the back of the shop and was like "Your work is erratic, tell me honestly, have you been smoking something you shouldn't" At first I denied it, then he was like 'just be honest' apparently it had got back to him through someone in my shop who had heard from someone else. In the end I just gave him a short synopsis of how I used to get really depressed etc and i smoked greeeln occasionly, then I smoked alot more when i moved here and my closing councilling session was next week etc. He was so lovely and he said i could talk to him whenever I wanted etc. A bit later he was like 'who do you get it off' the only lie I told was that I didn't, my friends of friends got it for me.
Jim said that he didn't know wheather he liked me or not. he said he only liked it when we got with eachother sometimes, he said he didn't wana fuck things up. Jake wants to talk to himabout ti. I just don't know. I just really don't want it to be like him and treacle. I wanted it to be something special, for us. I don't know wheather I even know what I want anymore. I'm pretty confused. I think it's cause he doesn't like me I just don't know. I want to feel close to someone, i think, to stop the numbnesws.
We are all celebrating Jakes 16th at Roos. it is fun.
I love my friends.
And Frog, I well love you andf i'm sorry I called you, i'll call you when i'm soberish tommorow and my mum says you can come and stay cause she loves you.
I'm getting closer everydqay to the numbness fadinbg, I can haqrdly feel it.
LOVE YOU BALL.
zxz
zxz
Today my boss took me to the back of the shop and was like "Your work is erratic, tell me honestly, have you been smoking something you shouldn't" At first I denied it, then he was like 'just be honest' apparently it had got back to him through someone in my shop who had heard from someone else. In the end I just gave him a short synopsis of how I used to get really depressed etc and i smoked greeeln occasionly, then I smoked alot more when i moved here and my closing councilling session was next week etc. He was so lovely and he said i could talk to him whenever I wanted etc. A bit later he was like 'who do you get it off' the only lie I told was that I didn't, my friends of friends got it for me.
Jim said that he didn't know wheather he liked me or not. he said he only liked it when we got with eachother sometimes, he said he didn't wana fuck things up. Jake wants to talk to himabout ti. I just don't know. I just really don't want it to be like him and treacle. I wanted it to be something special, for us. I don't know wheather I even know what I want anymore. I'm pretty confused. I think it's cause he doesn't like me I just don't know. I want to feel close to someone, i think, to stop the numbnesws.
We are all celebrating Jakes 16th at Roos. it is fun.
I love my friends.
And Frog, I well love you andf i'm sorry I called you, i'll call you when i'm soberish tommorow and my mum says you can come and stay cause she loves you.
I'm getting closer everydqay to the numbness fadinbg, I can haqrdly feel it.
LOVE YOU BALL.
zxz
zxz