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I'm in college.
nothing's gonna change my world.
I don't feel like this is my life. I just feel like an innocent spectator watching this poor innocent girl fuck up her life intense;y beyond repair.
I've been here less than a month and I've already disintigrated my morals, had a pregnancy scare, made a 21-year-old notorious for being a wham-bam-thank-you-ma'am kinda guy fall in love with me, developed the crush on said hippie-texan into a full-fledged amorous fuck up, gotten a job, sent more text messages than I ever have in my LIFE, and still not lost my feelings for Ben. Fuck I love him. FUCK FUCK FUCK.
Oh, and become addicted to the word "fuck".
Jai Guru Dei Ra Ohm.
I miss being alive.
I miss being Mia. I hate this Amelia creature. I need to go back to Bravo and take back the note, the epitaph I left in the labyrinth that left Mia up the mountain.
I'm dead. But I'm not.
I'm so lost. I'm living my life too quickly. I'm not ready to be this adult.
I can hear Mia calling to me from DeBenneville. I want so badly to run backwards through time, grab her up and never let her go again. Ben loves Mia. Ben would not even want to associate with Amelia.
I was so ready to be this Amelia. I was so ready to change.
I cut/coloured my hair, threw caution to the wind, and let go.
But I was already whole. Why didn't I see I was whole? Why did I leave all that love, that compassion behind?
WHY AM I HERE?
I don't belong here. I don't party, I don't get that crazy, I don't eat meat, I don't even drink SODA, I don't have an accent, I don't appreciate iceburg lettuce as a vegetable, I don't smoke and I DON'T want to be around all that foulness.
Fair is foul and foul is fair.
There is one, besides that which we have heard and seen, recounts the most horrid tales seen by the watch. Oh, I do not understand these things. And yet I do fear them.
FUCK.
Someone save me please. Someone take me home. Someone love me truly.
Someone help me save myself.
I want to go home. Please tak me home; home to where I belong. I just want to live. I just want to breathe, back where I used to be.
Insane Notorious Defiled Immoral Atrocity Nefarious Abhorrific.
Put Mia back in her body.
SAVE MIA
nothing's gonna change my world.
I don't feel like this is my life. I just feel like an innocent spectator watching this poor innocent girl fuck up her life intense;y beyond repair.
I've been here less than a month and I've already disintigrated my morals, had a pregnancy scare, made a 21-year-old notorious for being a wham-bam-thank-you-ma'am kinda guy fall in love with me, developed the crush on said hippie-texan into a full-fledged amorous fuck up, gotten a job, sent more text messages than I ever have in my LIFE, and still not lost my feelings for Ben. Fuck I love him. FUCK FUCK FUCK.
Oh, and become addicted to the word "fuck".
Jai Guru Dei Ra Ohm.
I miss being alive.
I miss being Mia. I hate this Amelia creature. I need to go back to Bravo and take back the note, the epitaph I left in the labyrinth that left Mia up the mountain.
I'm dead. But I'm not.
I'm so lost. I'm living my life too quickly. I'm not ready to be this adult.
I can hear Mia calling to me from DeBenneville. I want so badly to run backwards through time, grab her up and never let her go again. Ben loves Mia. Ben would not even want to associate with Amelia.
I was so ready to be this Amelia. I was so ready to change.
I cut/coloured my hair, threw caution to the wind, and let go.
But I was already whole. Why didn't I see I was whole? Why did I leave all that love, that compassion behind?
WHY AM I HERE?
I don't belong here. I don't party, I don't get that crazy, I don't eat meat, I don't even drink SODA, I don't have an accent, I don't appreciate iceburg lettuce as a vegetable, I don't smoke and I DON'T want to be around all that foulness.
Fair is foul and foul is fair.
There is one, besides that which we have heard and seen, recounts the most horrid tales seen by the watch. Oh, I do not understand these things. And yet I do fear them.
FUCK.
Someone save me please. Someone take me home. Someone love me truly.
Someone help me save myself.
I want to go home. Please tak me home; home to where I belong. I just want to live. I just want to breathe, back where I used to be.
Insane Notorious Defiled Immoral Atrocity Nefarious Abhorrific.
Put Mia back in her body.
SAVE MIA