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well lets see I've been sober for a week now and I'm feeling pretty good. Things so far seem to be looking up for me, I feel, look and am acting alot better than I was as of late heh. With the holidays comming up I think its put me in a somewhat gloomy mood. The holidays always make me sad for some reason, seems to be the reverse of everyone else's feeling toward it. Oh well @ lest I have someone I love beside me this year unlike any of the previous years. Everyone keeps telling me I look great and have lost weight and all tat good shit, I finaly can tell heh, I put on a shirt I havent worn in yrs and I was like SCORE! I went and saw RENT again with my mother tonight, once again it was amazing. It made wish I was back in NY with Eliza. I really wish I could find a way to live up there but lets see I'm not smart or loaded enough to go to college up there and even a apartment's probly out of my leage so it looks like I'm stuck in the boro for now. I will eventualy find a way to get up there cause NY is the only place I really felt like I belonged and I loved that sense of being whole for once. Well enough I'm just going to put myself in another downer so I'll leave you all to read and laugh at my troubles.
Goodnight, jojo
Goodnight, jojo