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If you're reading this
Then I finally did it
I'm sorry I didn't say goodbye
There was no time
Understand I was stressed
Living day to day was hard
And I gave it my best
But there was nothing left
For me in this world
To convince me to stay
Now I'm long gone away
Don't you do that
Don't you start your tears
Just remember all the time we spent over the years
Never cry
Never think bad to me
What's done is done and that's the way it had to be
I need you to be strong for me
Say your prayer everyday in my memory
I'm sure it's helping me
To earn my feathers
To get some wings
And a halo and a harp and angelic things
And even though I'm gone And outta sight
Never worry about me
I'm alright
[x2]
I'm alright
And if I should die
Don't blame yourself and keep it locked inside
I'm alright
And everytime you cry don't breakdown
Just keep me inside in your mind
You only saw the outside
Never knew what I was feeling
Now everyday you lay in bed staring at the ceiling
But you don't see me no more
You can fill your heart with memories
And things from before
But everybody got a purpose in life
To survive when the sunrise
You gonna live to see another day
Just don't follow me and live your life your own way
I'll be in set and if you forget
Get the picture with the cord around my neck
See me underground and I'm stuck
But it's cool that's where I wanna be
Keep the drama in hand but outta sight
And know that
I'mma be alright
[x2]
I'm alright
And if I should die
Don't blame yourself and keep it locked inside
I'm alright
And everytime you cry don't breakdown
Just keep me inside in your mind
i decided to open this entry off with a song that for a long time was kinda an anthem and a running theme though out my life. always thinkin about death and suaside and thinkin how easy it would be. but there was always a thought in the back of my head that "imma be alright thangs will work out" and now i think its alright its not great i still want out of this house. now that i have a job i'm out of the house more often then not and i'm getting money to do it wich is workin towords my goal of moving out.
saturday morning i woke up at 8 am to drive to the los gatos hills to film for the day so we film and every things is cool and i'm really enjoying the experince of filming with a real crew and other dedacated indivuals. so after that i go to something called siliCon with danny and eli casue i got free tixs from my film teacher and it was hell cool i saw a really nice crimson gaurd costum, and got a pix with him. then later that day we meet Mr. lobo and danny gets a pix with him. then after that we are in a meeting about bigfoot in the santa cruz hills and i get a call from my boss asking if i can get there in 15 minouts and i say sure. i say my goodbyes to danny and eli and i drive hella quick to mm and i start my day at work with a bang. after the first one they dident stop. make the pizza drive the pizza make the pizza drive it all day no bracks til 10 30. there was still a guy in there drinking by him self he must of had two picters of beer to him self. my boss finally had to kick him out after we were all done cleaning. i was bushed i just went home and crashed i had almost no time to stop on saturerday.
day i go home to wash and do some shit when my boss calls and say can you come in we're swamped. so i say sure after i take a shower. when i get there all thats there is my boss, my coworker, and our hostess girl to take orders, and an entier soccors team and a shit load of people wathcing the 49ers-raider game. two people makin about ten pizzas and other food. hella swamped so i start makin pizza then they start callin everybody want dilivery, so i go out as soon as i get back no time to do anything else get the order and run. this goes on for the next 8 hours. then dave call and wants to know if i wanna hang out i say sure after work. then robert calls and say wanna hang out and i say sure. so after work we go to edghies pool hall and play some almost drunkin pool except none of us had anything to drink, we're just that bad.
after were done with that we all gotta go home so phil and rob start to leave then rob jumps out the car and throws the pizza at me and dave. i pick a pice up and stick it on phils car window. well after much running from rop and dave almost getting hit with phils car me and dave go to his hous. dave asked if he could dave my car i said sure. it was a feeling i hadent had in a long time not sence i was first starting to drive my bug. it felt good.
when we go tto daves house we whatched blazin saddles which i had only seen in parts and i most say that movie is freakin awsome. so i crash at daves house that night too and its feeling like the old days where i stayed over at dave house more then my own.
so other then dave freking out on his mom it was a good weekin. hopefull this up comimg weekend will pan out to be good.
Then I finally did it
I'm sorry I didn't say goodbye
There was no time
Understand I was stressed
Living day to day was hard
And I gave it my best
But there was nothing left
For me in this world
To convince me to stay
Now I'm long gone away
Don't you do that
Don't you start your tears
Just remember all the time we spent over the years
Never cry
Never think bad to me
What's done is done and that's the way it had to be
I need you to be strong for me
Say your prayer everyday in my memory
I'm sure it's helping me
To earn my feathers
To get some wings
And a halo and a harp and angelic things
And even though I'm gone And outta sight
Never worry about me
I'm alright
[x2]
I'm alright
And if I should die
Don't blame yourself and keep it locked inside
I'm alright
And everytime you cry don't breakdown
Just keep me inside in your mind
You only saw the outside
Never knew what I was feeling
Now everyday you lay in bed staring at the ceiling
But you don't see me no more
You can fill your heart with memories
And things from before
But everybody got a purpose in life
To survive when the sunrise
You gonna live to see another day
Just don't follow me and live your life your own way
I'll be in set and if you forget
Get the picture with the cord around my neck
See me underground and I'm stuck
But it's cool that's where I wanna be
Keep the drama in hand but outta sight
And know that
I'mma be alright
[x2]
I'm alright
And if I should die
Don't blame yourself and keep it locked inside
I'm alright
And everytime you cry don't breakdown
Just keep me inside in your mind
i decided to open this entry off with a song that for a long time was kinda an anthem and a running theme though out my life. always thinkin about death and suaside and thinkin how easy it would be. but there was always a thought in the back of my head that "imma be alright thangs will work out" and now i think its alright its not great i still want out of this house. now that i have a job i'm out of the house more often then not and i'm getting money to do it wich is workin towords my goal of moving out.
saturday morning i woke up at 8 am to drive to the los gatos hills to film for the day so we film and every things is cool and i'm really enjoying the experince of filming with a real crew and other dedacated indivuals. so after that i go to something called siliCon with danny and eli casue i got free tixs from my film teacher and it was hell cool i saw a really nice crimson gaurd costum, and got a pix with him. then later that day we meet Mr. lobo and danny gets a pix with him. then after that we are in a meeting about bigfoot in the santa cruz hills and i get a call from my boss asking if i can get there in 15 minouts and i say sure. i say my goodbyes to danny and eli and i drive hella quick to mm and i start my day at work with a bang. after the first one they dident stop. make the pizza drive the pizza make the pizza drive it all day no bracks til 10 30. there was still a guy in there drinking by him self he must of had two picters of beer to him self. my boss finally had to kick him out after we were all done cleaning. i was bushed i just went home and crashed i had almost no time to stop on saturerday.
day i go home to wash and do some shit when my boss calls and say can you come in we're swamped. so i say sure after i take a shower. when i get there all thats there is my boss, my coworker, and our hostess girl to take orders, and an entier soccors team and a shit load of people wathcing the 49ers-raider game. two people makin about ten pizzas and other food. hella swamped so i start makin pizza then they start callin everybody want dilivery, so i go out as soon as i get back no time to do anything else get the order and run. this goes on for the next 8 hours. then dave call and wants to know if i wanna hang out i say sure after work. then robert calls and say wanna hang out and i say sure. so after work we go to edghies pool hall and play some almost drunkin pool except none of us had anything to drink, we're just that bad.
after were done with that we all gotta go home so phil and rob start to leave then rob jumps out the car and throws the pizza at me and dave. i pick a pice up and stick it on phils car window. well after much running from rop and dave almost getting hit with phils car me and dave go to his hous. dave asked if he could dave my car i said sure. it was a feeling i hadent had in a long time not sence i was first starting to drive my bug. it felt good.
when we go tto daves house we whatched blazin saddles which i had only seen in parts and i most say that movie is freakin awsome. so i crash at daves house that night too and its feeling like the old days where i stayed over at dave house more then my own.
so other then dave freking out on his mom it was a good weekin. hopefull this up comimg weekend will pan out to be good.