i hate this town
Well i got in yet another fight with my mom. This one bigger than usual. She's never happy with me. I cant do anything right to her. Seriously she thinks im a walking mistake. She told me that she wanted me to go live somewhere else and that she hates everything about me and that one of these days shes not gonna be there for me. Not like she ever is anyway and i told her that and she just flipped out. I try to tell her how i feel about fighting with her all the time and all she does is get mad. So whats the point if she gets mad at how i feel why dont i just let her sit there and yell at me about absolutly nothing. All of our fights start over gay things like I forgot what my costume looks like. I dont even see a point in trying to make her happy because i never can. It kinda sucks having a mom that hasnt even said i love you to me in about a year. And is never there for me and doesnt think that i even care about her being there for me, but i do. And when i tell her that she doesnt listen. I wish i had a mom that i could tell everything and have her be there and help me but instead i have one that tells me she hates me. I told her i hate fighting with her and that we should try and get along and she says well if you didnt start shit with me every day we would get along. So basically everything is all my fault but it really isnt. And it doesnt help that i have 2 best friends that i just dont even understand. Like when they say im not going to hang out today im going home because im tired and then end up staying at the other ones house and then when they finally do go home they bring the other one with them. And then they are suppost to do something with you that night and decide well im just gonna ditch my "best friend" to hang out with my other "best friend" I just dont understand some people and i guess i cant really trust anyone. And its kinda dumb when they make up lame ass excuses like "oh im only here to get a drink and a snack then im gonna go home" Yeah okay whatever you fucking say. Oh well i guess im getting mad over nothing. Plus my grandma and my uncle are both getting worse, and my other uncle just had a heart attack. Ehh whatever i guess other people have worse lives than me so im just gonna stop complaining.
Comment if you want, if your just gonna be mean dont even bother i dont wanna hear it...
i love you..