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I feel particularly boring, unsuccessful and uninteresting today.
I could list the reasons why, but I think it comes down to not really having anything to show for my troubles. I need to feel like I have done something worth while.
It's funny how hard it actually is to feel as if I have accomplished anything.
I'm not sure why school doesn't really help me feel better. I know I've done a lot of that. I mean, it's supposed to be hard to get to where I am, right? Getting my bachelors at a university makes me stand out, right?
Sure.
Then why don't I feel like that really makes a difference?
Isn't that what most people want? To feel like they have made a difference...
Or maybe just to stand out, to do something wholeheartedly. With all your being.
To be so practiced at...anything....that you can impress anyone with your skill...or maybe just someone, anyone.
It can't be that hard. Can it?
I suppose not.
Maybe I just haven't found where I fit yet.
I could list the reasons why, but I think it comes down to not really having anything to show for my troubles. I need to feel like I have done something worth while.
It's funny how hard it actually is to feel as if I have accomplished anything.
I'm not sure why school doesn't really help me feel better. I know I've done a lot of that. I mean, it's supposed to be hard to get to where I am, right? Getting my bachelors at a university makes me stand out, right?
Sure.
Then why don't I feel like that really makes a difference?
Isn't that what most people want? To feel like they have made a difference...
Or maybe just to stand out, to do something wholeheartedly. With all your being.
To be so practiced at...anything....that you can impress anyone with your skill...or maybe just someone, anyone.
It can't be that hard. Can it?
I suppose not.
Maybe I just haven't found where I fit yet.