first day with new feet?
i thought....that being here would be hard. maybe it's supposed to be? im a little confused, and a little relieved. i slept through the night last night. woke up late and had lunch for breakfast because that was what time it was. i found one of Stephani's necklaces yesterday, the beautiful teardrop moonstone one i admired so much. i decided to be selfish and ask for it, Jeni let me have it, and it felt right. im going to try and give the malachite pendant she bought in Manitou with me to Jessica. that also feels like a match to me.
im not sure that material things are supposed to sooth pain the way that pendant has for me. but holding onto it, it makes me feel...like everything will be ok. maybe it's an aura? maybe it's just that the material makes the immaterial easier to handle. im not sure. but it's a good thing.
i think that tomorrow, the memorial, will be alright after all.
Steph, i choose to believe that you have something to do with me feeling better. The truth of that is unknowable. So...
until tomorrow.
im not sure that material things are supposed to sooth pain the way that pendant has for me. but holding onto it, it makes me feel...like everything will be ok. maybe it's an aura? maybe it's just that the material makes the immaterial easier to handle. im not sure. but it's a good thing.
i think that tomorrow, the memorial, will be alright after all.
Steph, i choose to believe that you have something to do with me feeling better. The truth of that is unknowable. So...
until tomorrow.