who am I?
so, i kinda forgot how wonderful this thing really is...so here goes nothing
i realized today that i have several insecurities and that scares the living hell out of me. I think the part that scares me the most is i have no clue how to rid of them with out actualy facing them...and that just absolutly terrifies me.
i'm also tired of people in my life walking out on me when things get rough, that was sooo hard to deal with last night. i knew that she was coming back, but the fact that she walked out when we needed her still hurt me deep inside. Over and over again people that i get close to either walk out or leave me, and let me tell you, its not the most wonderful feeling in the world. And i've noticed that i'm starting to do the same to others, and that also terrifies me...i get close to someone(aka a guy) and i find reasons why i shouldnt like them, why they aren't for me and i push myself away from them, convinced that i'm not good enough for them...
who am i becoming?
i realized today that i have several insecurities and that scares the living hell out of me. I think the part that scares me the most is i have no clue how to rid of them with out actualy facing them...and that just absolutly terrifies me.
i'm also tired of people in my life walking out on me when things get rough, that was sooo hard to deal with last night. i knew that she was coming back, but the fact that she walked out when we needed her still hurt me deep inside. Over and over again people that i get close to either walk out or leave me, and let me tell you, its not the most wonderful feeling in the world. And i've noticed that i'm starting to do the same to others, and that also terrifies me...i get close to someone(aka a guy) and i find reasons why i shouldnt like them, why they aren't for me and i push myself away from them, convinced that i'm not good enough for them...
who am i becoming?