gotta throw it all down and kiss it goodbye
so here i sit in my depression, counting down the days until i leave everything. 3 is such a small number :-( it never really hit me until this past saturday cause i was like, wow this is my last saturday... and what a shitty last saturday. well, it was still KINDA fun... at around 6 am.
i went to the track again yesterday and saw bryan this time. i won $7 on one race and then i won $40 on the last race! boy, was i excited! i then took that $40 and treated my sister and her friend to a bag of weed :-) i'm so generous.
i spent most of my day today sleeping and then i made a wal*mart trip and spent almost $100 on stuff for school. i started packing up my stuff and got really sad :-( i'm gonna miss everyone sooo much. some more than others, but i have my reasons... i think i'm gonna start crying...
"she don't know how much i need her. she don't know i'd fall apart without her kiss, without her touch, without her faithful, loving arms. she don't know that it's all about her. she don't know i can't live without her. she's my world, she's my everything... and she thinks she needs me."