Wow! What a night!! Again!!!!
You know, it is funny how so many things in my life change so quickly. One minute I am feeling like nothing could bring me down, the next I am picking my self up off the floor. One minute I have a friend, the next she wants to move. :(
Okay, so really, why can't anything ever remain the same? I don't know anyone with a more changing life than me. Why is that? Why must I be the one who can't seem to control her life? Not that I wish my life on anyone else, but damnit man. I think what my problem is is that I hate to hurt someones feelings, but that seems to be what always happens. I dunno. Maybe change will be good for me. Maybe I should not fight any of the change coming my way & just welcome it. Maybe I should let you move, if it is REALLY what you want. Maybe I SHOULD leave him alone. Maybe I SHOULD let Riley divorce me. Maybe I should except change. Even though I don't like it. I guess everyone has their own life & demons & I just need to grow up & deal with my own instead of making them worse.
Okay, so really, why can't anything ever remain the same? I don't know anyone with a more changing life than me. Why is that? Why must I be the one who can't seem to control her life? Not that I wish my life on anyone else, but damnit man. I think what my problem is is that I hate to hurt someones feelings, but that seems to be what always happens. I dunno. Maybe change will be good for me. Maybe I should not fight any of the change coming my way & just welcome it. Maybe I should let you move, if it is REALLY what you want. Maybe I SHOULD leave him alone. Maybe I SHOULD let Riley divorce me. Maybe I should except change. Even though I don't like it. I guess everyone has their own life & demons & I just need to grow up & deal with my own instead of making them worse.