Bury me bury me
I am really frustrated right now, and I'm having a hard time expressing exactly why. There's so many things that I want to happen.. but don't... so many places I want to go... but don't. So many things I want to say... but.. that's right. Don't.
Today started out perfectly fine until I got to work. Tim has hired 4 more people to work at night, and this really pisses me off because there isn't enough work for that many people. I sometimes end up going home early because there just isn't enough work to do. So, there's really no need for 4 extra people. So today, I get to work and there's absolutely nothing to do. And it's because all the new people are doing it! So I pretty much just sat around, staring off into space until they left. I felt so in the way, and so incredibly uselss. I was so frustrated in fact that I wanted Chris to come join me for lunch.. something good to make me feel better. But he would not come, because he would have to go get in the car.. drive all the way to my work, be with me for 20 min and drive all the home, to come back and get me 3 hours later. So I can kind of see his point and everything, but I was so bummed out and so concentrated on him just being there for me... that that's all I could think about. Needless to say I was pretty hurt which made the night worse. After most the new people left, things got better cuz then I actually had things to do, and that helped take my mind of off a million other things I have been thinking about the last couple weeks.
We are thinking about moving back to Spokane. Prefably before summer, if not, then when our lease is up. I'm actually really excited about this. Even though I'll have to work with customers again, I'll be back with my friends, and my family, and it'll be cheaper... and I'm just really anxious to get the whole process started. On memorial weekend we are going over to CdA for my cousins wedding, so that weekend Chris is going to go to a bunch of casinos, and start applying and looking for jobs. Then after he gets a job, we can start looking for houses, and then I can get my transfer, and then we can move!!! ahh!!! I think, snice it's a lot cheaper over there to live, we can rent a house, or a duplex, and we can get a dog!
We've really been havin trouble payin for things here. Ever snice we moved outta Mac's place, our rent went up 300 dollars, and we havn't been able to make one payment on time. Our cell phones are shut off, cuz our last two bills combined are over 500 dollars, Comcast wants over 200, we owe Keenan 400, and list goes on and on and on.
Sadly I actually found a gray hair the other day =( I guess I had better start eliminating stress from my life and quick, cuz I do not want a gray head by the time I'm 25 *sighs*
What to do? What to do?
It took me awhile... But I finally miss home.