The purpose of life, is a life of purpose
It's that time of year again where every store decides to keep it's doors open a couple hours longer so no one will miss out on all the "fantastic" Christmas sales. It kinda bothers me how every holiday has become so comercialized.. and the true meaning is likely to be buried somewhere in the clearance rack. Christmas starts as soon as Thanksgiving is over. By the time the actual day comes, there's almost a feeling of disappointment. I think it would be a lot more special if it didn't last for 30 days. It's a lot of added stress too. I'm not really one to talk though.. cuz I do participate in this 30 day event.
Anyways, besides the stress of Christmas growing nearer, and me becoming more broke.. life is good. I'm starting to adjust to my new job at Macy's, and I've decided that I like it. When I'm there. When I'm not there, I don't want to go there, or be there, or go to work there. I know that this isn't the best thing, but I have come to the conclusion that most jobs are this way. You hate going there, but once you get there, it really isn't that bad. It's the forcing yourself to get there is what I often have a problem with. I wish I could find a job that I love so much I want to go, and I want to be there. I'm doubtful I'll find it though. I'm not even sure clinical psychology will make it 100% happy.
I'm still trying to do the school thing. I am still enrolled at North Idaho College. Even though I've missed the last 4 classes (2 were cancelled though) of my only class.. I have confidence I have a chance of passing and moving on to next semester - a full schedule. I regret that I signed up for 4 classes, and I have a feeling that I'll drop most of them. Maybe this is a sign that Psychology is not what I'm meant to do. Honestly, there is no career that I truly want. I think what I really want, is to just stay at home, do the cooking, cleaning, take care of the kids, run errands... I really think that's how I'd be the most happy. Unfortunately society practically demands that both parents work, so I need to figure out something that I can do. LOL maybe I can be a manager at Macy's someday.
The days are coming to a close for my grandpa. I wish there was something I could do. He said he's ready though. He doesn't want to suffer anymore. I don't know what Grandma will do with out him. They've been married for 52 years. It's going to be hard.
Life is getting better though despite a few things, and I'm obtaining more and new reasons to smile, so am I happy? YES
Anyways, besides the stress of Christmas growing nearer, and me becoming more broke.. life is good. I'm starting to adjust to my new job at Macy's, and I've decided that I like it. When I'm there. When I'm not there, I don't want to go there, or be there, or go to work there. I know that this isn't the best thing, but I have come to the conclusion that most jobs are this way. You hate going there, but once you get there, it really isn't that bad. It's the forcing yourself to get there is what I often have a problem with. I wish I could find a job that I love so much I want to go, and I want to be there. I'm doubtful I'll find it though. I'm not even sure clinical psychology will make it 100% happy.
I'm still trying to do the school thing. I am still enrolled at North Idaho College. Even though I've missed the last 4 classes (2 were cancelled though) of my only class.. I have confidence I have a chance of passing and moving on to next semester - a full schedule. I regret that I signed up for 4 classes, and I have a feeling that I'll drop most of them. Maybe this is a sign that Psychology is not what I'm meant to do. Honestly, there is no career that I truly want. I think what I really want, is to just stay at home, do the cooking, cleaning, take care of the kids, run errands... I really think that's how I'd be the most happy. Unfortunately society practically demands that both parents work, so I need to figure out something that I can do. LOL maybe I can be a manager at Macy's someday.
The days are coming to a close for my grandpa. I wish there was something I could do. He said he's ready though. He doesn't want to suffer anymore. I don't know what Grandma will do with out him. They've been married for 52 years. It's going to be hard.
Life is getting better though despite a few things, and I'm obtaining more and new reasons to smile, so am I happy? YES