A Time to Lie or is that Die?
I guess...well lets just say that i'm letting all of you know the shit that goes on in the fucked up life of me: Joanna. Shall I begin at number 1? - My bestfriend of 7 years claims that I'm "trying to be like her" naming who exactly? And leaves our talk at:"i like you as you" when this IS me. Then she tries calling my fone when it just dies from low batter, so when charged there's a TXT that reads "i think u should reconsider who you think i am" Sure, i thought i knew her til now. til i'm called some wannabe fuck-- she really don't know me at all and then she texts ME saying i don't know HER?? fuck friends. they turn on you. If she really wants to know the reason...it not for "attention" i hate attention and she should know that already...nor am i trying to be a clone. You're not around me 24 hours a day or you would know...i never pass judgemant on you cause its not my right to. You know i don't like talking about my past but i will now. First my granddad's molesting of me and rape, my dads drunkeness and bashing, my mums sickness and causing abuse towards me, my sister mental problems fucking me up all the time and just randoms men being pigs forceful and mental torture on an every day basis! not to mention now i'm up to my neck with a drug gang because of my friend etc....... Get the pic? Secondly-My sister having a funny turn yesterday she went all numb on one side i had to force her to go the doc's and now she has to get cat scans X-rays an ultra-sound an std test even a pregnancy test...if she's pregnant my life is fucked. Thirdly- Joe children love me they want me all the time now & his youngest Amie has autism yet she so bright. Chloe bashes her sis cause of that i felt as if they were my own they made me cry in sympathy. So, when Joe got back we had dinner and he drove me home and said that he loved me and that i was a better mother to his children than thir own mum but still i couldn't kiss him. I felt like shit and worthless because of comments made and how i understood them so i left him in the car with sadness. i understand him more now... which i thought i understood my friend but not, so now i'm just fucked up. So thank you world for being so good to me.
Tata for now i guess.
Joanna
p.s Amie you will be hearing from me as soon as i get credit because i want to let you know how I feel towards you and those words. for once my stings coming out .
Tata for now i guess.
Joanna
p.s Amie you will be hearing from me as soon as i get credit because i want to let you know how I feel towards you and those words. for once my stings coming out .