Picking up more pieces of the puzzle
Last night was my first Monday in a long time without therapy - or maybe my first week without therapy 'intentionally' in a long while.
And it was awesome.
I did have a weird moment driving home where I was like "Oh man, what am I gonna do with all these crazy feelings that have been cropping up?"
Then it occurred to me "Well, for starters you could just feel them and let them be."
I felt a big smile creeping across my face and had that inner certainty that I am doing the right thing.
There is an abundance of a lot of really good things in my life right now and I just feel incredibly grateful for all of it.
There is also an abundance *right now* of some slightly stir crazy energy. Some of it was put to good use last night by pulling some zines from my personal collection for the Girls Rock Denver Zine Workshop and thinking a little bit more about what the workshop is going to look like. I am so excited for it!! I used the remainder of the crazy energy to upload new pictures on my computer and put some new and old ones up on the internets.
Tonight I am going to a Daughters group in Arvada that I am really excited/nervous for. The story behind it is that this woman wrote a book for daughters of narcissistic personality disorder moms and it was wildly successful and spoke to a lot of women about the importance of not perpetuating this hurtful behavior on other generations of girls, ourselves, or our friends, lovers, etc. She got so many calls to take on new clients in therapy one on one that she decided to have a weekly group so that women could work on these things together in community. And I found out about it just in time and got one of the last open spots. Yay!
I'm really interested to see how it goes.
Also I feel a little today like a cranky child who wore itself out trying to get its way. Which is kind of hilarious. There is a longer and totally crazy story behind this, but I am tired of hearing myself talk about it so I'm not even going to attempt to journal about it. Nap Time.
And it was awesome.
I did have a weird moment driving home where I was like "Oh man, what am I gonna do with all these crazy feelings that have been cropping up?"
Then it occurred to me "Well, for starters you could just feel them and let them be."
I felt a big smile creeping across my face and had that inner certainty that I am doing the right thing.
There is an abundance of a lot of really good things in my life right now and I just feel incredibly grateful for all of it.
There is also an abundance *right now* of some slightly stir crazy energy. Some of it was put to good use last night by pulling some zines from my personal collection for the Girls Rock Denver Zine Workshop and thinking a little bit more about what the workshop is going to look like. I am so excited for it!! I used the remainder of the crazy energy to upload new pictures on my computer and put some new and old ones up on the internets.
Tonight I am going to a Daughters group in Arvada that I am really excited/nervous for. The story behind it is that this woman wrote a book for daughters of narcissistic personality disorder moms and it was wildly successful and spoke to a lot of women about the importance of not perpetuating this hurtful behavior on other generations of girls, ourselves, or our friends, lovers, etc. She got so many calls to take on new clients in therapy one on one that she decided to have a weekly group so that women could work on these things together in community. And I found out about it just in time and got one of the last open spots. Yay!
I'm really interested to see how it goes.
Also I feel a little today like a cranky child who wore itself out trying to get its way. Which is kind of hilarious. There is a longer and totally crazy story behind this, but I am tired of hearing myself talk about it so I'm not even going to attempt to journal about it. Nap Time.