The in-betwixt times
Life has been changning in really impressive leaps and bounds lately. Its a lot to adjust to/transition with fast.
Not surprisingly, most of it hasn't even begun to sink in yet.
----LIFE IN FLUX----
I'm LOVING the fall colors everywhere and using blankets and sweaters and scarves and coats. Not looking forward to the inevitable Halloween snow, but am so enjoying the brief window of time in Colorado when it really does feel like the bridge between the worlds is lifted and you could accidentally stumble into a spirit just about anywhere. The air is misty cool and the light is dark purple but iridecent magickal tinged with the red and orange of tree leaves.
The other night Squee sleepily asked me if I believe in the soul. I surprised myself by immediately answering Yes. In the past I might have hesitated, pondered, thought, before answernig. But something has shifted in my trusting of myself and my instinct. So I said yes. And then she asked me what I thought a soul was. I said Enduring.
I have recently had such visceral experiences with my dearly depared ancestors that I just have no hesitation about whether or not I believe in the soul or spirit worlds or what have you. I just know. This is something I have known before. The change now being that I trust myself and my experiences more.
What a huge benefit this will be to me when I start my new job defending criminals from the death penalty. I have an NPR "I Belive" program downloaded on my computer to listen to - done by a Lawyer and Law Professor who is famous for death penalty defense. I also have my school books marked to peruse and brush up on criminal law proceedings.
I am awfully sleepy today. My coffee with pumpkin spice creamer has just barely attempted to keep me awake at my desk. Had the most curious of dreams this morning where faces from my past melded into one. My kitty Morpheus made a cameo at the end of the dream which was kind of funny. Almost one week down before my new job. I have no desire to do anything remotely related to work here.
Yesterday got veneers put on my two front teeth and now they are a uniform color without stains. Feel a bit like Bugs Bunny - but I know its all in my head.
Am confused about decisions, choices, obligations, and the like with regard to my extended family, holidays, etc. Am exicted about my WINGS support group this weekend, have not been to one in a couple of weeks. I'm practically itching for it. I hope to get some perspective on whether or not to attend my grandmother's birthday dinner saturday night. Right now I am leaning towards not but flip-flopping every hour or so.
EDIT:
TAURUS (San Francisco Bay Gaurdian Horoscope)
You run the risk of burning yourself out. But with some care and composure, you can be at the top of your game. It's like the end of an era for your sign, though some of you will feel it more profoundly than others. Find closure where needed before you move ahead.
How do they do it? SO ACCURATE ITS ALMOST UNEBLEIVABLE
Not surprisingly, most of it hasn't even begun to sink in yet.
----LIFE IN FLUX----
I'm LOVING the fall colors everywhere and using blankets and sweaters and scarves and coats. Not looking forward to the inevitable Halloween snow, but am so enjoying the brief window of time in Colorado when it really does feel like the bridge between the worlds is lifted and you could accidentally stumble into a spirit just about anywhere. The air is misty cool and the light is dark purple but iridecent magickal tinged with the red and orange of tree leaves.
The other night Squee sleepily asked me if I believe in the soul. I surprised myself by immediately answering Yes. In the past I might have hesitated, pondered, thought, before answernig. But something has shifted in my trusting of myself and my instinct. So I said yes. And then she asked me what I thought a soul was. I said Enduring.
I have recently had such visceral experiences with my dearly depared ancestors that I just have no hesitation about whether or not I believe in the soul or spirit worlds or what have you. I just know. This is something I have known before. The change now being that I trust myself and my experiences more.
What a huge benefit this will be to me when I start my new job defending criminals from the death penalty. I have an NPR "I Belive" program downloaded on my computer to listen to - done by a Lawyer and Law Professor who is famous for death penalty defense. I also have my school books marked to peruse and brush up on criminal law proceedings.
I am awfully sleepy today. My coffee with pumpkin spice creamer has just barely attempted to keep me awake at my desk. Had the most curious of dreams this morning where faces from my past melded into one. My kitty Morpheus made a cameo at the end of the dream which was kind of funny. Almost one week down before my new job. I have no desire to do anything remotely related to work here.
Yesterday got veneers put on my two front teeth and now they are a uniform color without stains. Feel a bit like Bugs Bunny - but I know its all in my head.
Am confused about decisions, choices, obligations, and the like with regard to my extended family, holidays, etc. Am exicted about my WINGS support group this weekend, have not been to one in a couple of weeks. I'm practically itching for it. I hope to get some perspective on whether or not to attend my grandmother's birthday dinner saturday night. Right now I am leaning towards not but flip-flopping every hour or so.
EDIT:
TAURUS (San Francisco Bay Gaurdian Horoscope)
You run the risk of burning yourself out. But with some care and composure, you can be at the top of your game. It's like the end of an era for your sign, though some of you will feel it more profoundly than others. Find closure where needed before you move ahead.
How do they do it? SO ACCURATE ITS ALMOST UNEBLEIVABLE