i don't understand.
i don't understand life.
bad things happen to good people. is there any particular reason why? do the bad people bargain with god so that good people can get fucked? what kind of person is god to fuck up the good peoples' lives?
god is good to me when i need him to be. but it doesn't make sense to me that he fucks people over whenever he wants. when you get fucked by god, does that mean he's taking a shit, and the shit falls on you? i just don't understand why such bad things happen to people. why are third-world countries so desolate and poor? where the fuck is god when people truly need him to help make their lives a little brighter?
it makes me wonder if there is such a thing as god.
apparently there has to be. but he must be in a bad mood... pretty often, anyway.
in other, not so depressing news, i visited jamie today. she is doing much better :)
tara's birthday is coming up, yay <3
i hung out with ray today.
in more, depressing news, i need tires for stella.
which i can't afford because once again i'm not making enough money at a job i love having.
i'm going to have to get a second job.
and work my ass off on the weekends, too.
i can't afford anything anymore.
interesting news... when jp returns from rehab, i'll be beautiful for him.
bad things happen to good people. is there any particular reason why? do the bad people bargain with god so that good people can get fucked? what kind of person is god to fuck up the good peoples' lives?
god is good to me when i need him to be. but it doesn't make sense to me that he fucks people over whenever he wants. when you get fucked by god, does that mean he's taking a shit, and the shit falls on you? i just don't understand why such bad things happen to people. why are third-world countries so desolate and poor? where the fuck is god when people truly need him to help make their lives a little brighter?
it makes me wonder if there is such a thing as god.
apparently there has to be. but he must be in a bad mood... pretty often, anyway.
in other, not so depressing news, i visited jamie today. she is doing much better :)
tara's birthday is coming up, yay <3
i hung out with ray today.
in more, depressing news, i need tires for stella.
which i can't afford because once again i'm not making enough money at a job i love having.
i'm going to have to get a second job.
and work my ass off on the weekends, too.
i can't afford anything anymore.
interesting news... when jp returns from rehab, i'll be beautiful for him.