I'm Dreaming...Someone Pinch...ME!Because I must be.
I don't know how I can feel empty,depressed,tired,stressed,joyful,and happy all in 1 minute of every hour of every day.I feel empty ...I don't know why.Maybe it's because I let someone go...and I hardly talk to that anonymous person.and I really miss that person...cuz we had a lot of good times...and it DEPRESSES me because...like I don't see that person anymore...and I'm hoping that person can be in my quincenera and..I feel depressed cuz it's just hard to like...I dunno...i guess my icon...really describes how I feel. "You can never let go your FIRST L<3ve" And...if you guessed Richard...than yes you're right.I'm tired and pressured by my damn soccer coach.I can't be in two EFFIN places at once!I almost broke me effin' ankle this past saturday. I was center midfield...and i'm usually center forward..and so i had just helped the defense cuz our DEFENSE DOESNT MOVE!so then i get the ball and pass it up...and allie should have been there cuz i was yellin' her name to be open...and he's like "WHERE THE HECK IS MY CENTER MIDFIELD!?" and i'm like "OVER HERE!" and i passed the ball and the other team got it and i got it back and dribbled it up ...and its just stressful cuz i'm in one place and he yells at me and tells me i have to be in another.he's effin new at coaching soccer and it pissed me off how he doesn't know how to line us up!...and i'm goalie and i'm suprised...i'm doing really good!omg JeRoMe might go to my game this saturday!...anyways and i'm stressed cuz of school...my homework is piling and i have yearbook...and i have...an english teacher that pretty ....getting like whoa.i dunno but thank GoD i don't talk during that class.and...mr.rabalais ...i miss him!i want religion to be taught by the one and only mr.r...but other than that the whole thing messin' up my life is richard...and...i dunno it hurts to know that we're not as close as we were and how we don't talk...but who blames me?!i mean...the boy is sometimes online i'm RARELY online nowadays because of soccer then spring select is coming up and i have a possibility of making that.=/ and...just alot...of crap.but i mainly feel empty..and depressed.i come home everyday sad because of my mixed feelings then...someone in my class hating me for no reason.=/ makes it worse..and i just need one person who understands how i feel..i need someone who can just come up to me and say i'm dreaming...cuz every day it gets worse.somehow.until someone talks to me...i think i'll be ok..but i just need to talk to someone.my feelings are just..i dunno i guess u can say they are hard to understand unless u've really have had that experience.