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This sucks. Yes, I have a
boyfriend. And yes, I am over you. But it still hurts that everything is always
about her. Last night when you told me I
need to come home now, it made me
feel so special, because you wanted me there so bad. And then you said it again tonight. But then I found out you only want me there
because she is leaving for the summer.
Once again, it all came down to her.
And I was just second in line. I’m
always second to her. It used to hurt
because I knew the way you felt about her was exactly how I felt about you.
But now it just hurts because, well… You’re my best friend, hands down,
and a lot of the time it feels like our friendship means a hell of a lot more
to me than it does to you! I know you
care about me, it’s just really hard!!
And everything with her also bothers me because she fucks with you so
much. She tells you it will never
happen. You and I both know she’s right,
that it wouldn’t ever work. Plus she’s
got her boyfriend, hence her being gone this summer. Yet she continues to give you false
hope. Like at the cabin. She shouldn’t have slept in the same bed as
you. That was a pretty dick move. Way to make it 10x harder for you! I know how much it hurts to be lying next to
someone you want so bad but can’t have.
I just don’t want to see you get hurt!
And I know it already hurts. I
really wish there was something I could do about that. But I don’t want you to hurt any worse. I love you hun. I always will. More than you’ll ever know. All I want is for you to be happy. And pining over her, it isn’t making you
happy. I just want to see you smile!