oh, you humor me today
this won't be so useless.
today i learned//
[1] i am no good at taking pictures of things
[2] i am no good at cropping pictures of things
in the past couple of months i've learned//
[1] karma
1. The Buddhist belief that whatever you do comes back to you, e.g. if you do something good, something good will happen to you, and vice versa.
is real.
my manager got fired. this might sound evil, but i was truely glad. he did nothing but verbally abuse all his employees...to his other employee's. he basically ended up talking bad about everyone...to everyone. & since no one liked him for this reason, no one was sad to see him go.
& i quit my job because of school. YAY.
a couple of very weird things happened to me.
[1] my cat [molly] that i had for 11 years died earrrrllly in the morning on saturday the 6th. i had come home that night around 1 am & seen her in the front yard, perfectly healthy. i sat down & petted her for a minute...& my dad thinks she died about 1 or 2 hours later between 2 & 3 am because they found her at 6 in the morning & she was already pretty stiff...so yeah. she died from some sort of head trauma. it couldn't have been a car because she would've been flattened & she wasn't found near the road. i hate not knowing what happened. it sucked having to go to work that day & having customers ask me why i was crying.
[2] so exactly 1 week later [around 2 am earrrlly saturday morning...about the time molly most likely died] i was sitting downstairs & i kept hearing this meowing right outside my front window. i got a flashlight & found a tiny kitten just sitting in my front garden meowing as loud as it could. i brought it inside & gave it some food. it was so hungry & thirsty. &&& as if the timing from when i found it isn't weird enough, no one on my street lost a kitten, no cats on this street had kittens, no other kittens showed up [if someone dumped them or something], no one has come around here looking for a lost kitten. it came from nowhere. & by that i mean i believe molly sent it because this is what makes life mysterious.
i named it eisley. it's too young to tell if it's a boy or a girl yet.
no really, it's cute.
//so i took pictures of some of the things i've made. & you get to see.
conor oberst//stencil//fabric paint
more bright eyes.
closer.
[he once cut one of my nightmares out of paper//i thought it was beautiful, i put it on a record cover]
i hope you know what i mean.
my favorite band touched my shirt.
tsl purse//first thing i ever made, ha.
in the process of making//hand stitching those little x's takes a longgggggg time.
i made that out of one of my brother's long sleeve button down shirts.
ok, i lied about that one. but someone should take me to a fancy dinner so i can wear my prom dress again.
//some things are so surreal.
[being grown up isn't half as fun as growing up]
he said not to smile [when we should've been smiling].
my mom passed her modeling skills onto me.
or maybe just her face.
//lauren & i move into our dorm on sunday. i don't even know what to think about that [in case you're wondering we're singing about growing up about giving up & giving in]
there's still more to go.
//end.