Heartbreak # 3
I can't say I didn't see it coming. Well, I always see it coming. I found someone I truly TRULY liked and he/she says to me they like me back. And for some reason explained or not the person isn't quite ready yet. But his/her interest in me is still definately there. Oh, but how quickly he/she falls for someone else? Maybe even, he/she claims they aren't "ready for a relationship". But oh how quickly he/she jumps into one with someone else? Is there a script for all of this? Total story of my life. This was time #3. So what have I learned from this and recent events?
This is not the year for Adrienne and love or anything like it. I say a year because I'm not completely hopeless; perhaps in a coupla years I'll have found some blinding bit of self-esteem that makes me forget my undesirability. So, this year, no chasing...anyone. Unless someone hot and amazing throws him/her self at me, it ain't gonna happen. I don't like hook ups. And I really don't think I'll find someone. A year without any kind of intimacy? It's been done. Think of the time I'll save, not fuckin around, worrying/waiting for people.
This is not the year for Adrienne and love or anything like it. I say a year because I'm not completely hopeless; perhaps in a coupla years I'll have found some blinding bit of self-esteem that makes me forget my undesirability. So, this year, no chasing...anyone. Unless someone hot and amazing throws him/her self at me, it ain't gonna happen. I don't like hook ups. And I really don't think I'll find someone. A year without any kind of intimacy? It's been done. Think of the time I'll save, not fuckin around, worrying/waiting for people.