A letter to God I guess.

[dreakon]

I think I passed the 36 hour mark, and I feel fine. I just got doen watching the 6th sense, and what a powerfull movie. It really makes me think, I don't want to die, I don't want to leave chelsea. I think we were ment to be together. All the things that have hapened to me with women I think happened for a reason. Me and chelsea have NEVER had a fight, we have never really been mad at each other. I think that is true love. I have never felt this way about anyone in my entire life, see before this I didnt know if I really loved her or not, but now I jsut had this revelation that I do really love her. from the bottom of my heart to the very fabric of my soul I love her completly and entirely without abandon she makes me want to be a better person, she makes me want to try, to succseed, she makes me feel good about myself, my eyes are all watery right now, cause I know just how much I love her. I am so thankfull of that spiderman slinky that I took from her that she wrestled me for outside a friends house. Cause without it I would have never met such a beautifull, intellegent and loving person in my entire life. When she comes this week to visit I'm goin to tell her this. all of it. I know that she is the women that I want to marry, but it's not the right time for that now, I know that. Maybe, jsut maybe this is what I was looking for with this whole not sleeping thing and I thank you God for that. As long as I am with her Im invicible from pain. I'm not alone anymore damnit and I like it. I love it. so I think after I get done typing this Im going to write it on paper and wait till she gets here and Ill give it to her and tell her that I love her with ALL of my heart, it makes me feel so good inside, I havent felt this way ever before in my life, it feels so good, and I thank you for that. for making me see what I needed to see to be content.Thank you God, thank you soo much.

I think I'm goin to go to bed now. Goodnight all.