pardon my but who are you?

[dreadfulreality]

I am almost certain I dont know myself anymore...that I have lost all the best parts about me...killed off all the good people...and let myself grow into this lump.

I am my mothers child...
and she would hate to see who that child really is at night...

I am not my fathers little girl..and never will be

I cant say I remember how it used to be..because I dont care to remember.

and its starting to feel..like growing older may be what I need....because I hate how things always change...and so instead of looking into my past...maybe there should just be this big bright future to look into.

I hate going to bed feeling sick..and I have a feeling I wont sleep much tonight,
fuck.