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I have had suicidal thoughts in the past but never as obsessive as they are now. I know it takes a couple of weeks for the medication increase to take full effect. But jeeze it's never been as obsessive as this.
I take the meds, see the therapist, follow what the professionals tell me what to do. It just isn't working. And instead of being afraid. I just don't care and that's the problem.