well i did it...

[drea_g4]

It was really really hard, but I went and talked to Ryan today.(that would be my ex who now aparently gets really really high and drunk all the time) I am glad i did tho. And as much as i hate the way it sounds, and hate even more to admit it, I missed him, not as a boyfriend or anything, but i honestly missed talking to him, I mean, it's not easy

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[anonymous]

hey kiddo,
You don't know me at all because I recently graduated, but I saw you guys at bolwling, which also amazes me. I have one bone to pick, not particularly with you, but with the past two junior kairos. Kairos isn't meant to be turned into a community for livejournal. Many of us seniors question if it's for show. We worked extremely hard not to spoil any secrets or the sanctity of kairos for you guys, and we hope you do the same. Meaning stop with the stupid "kairos Parties" (not yours, but Laurens) You guys dare to say live the 4th and all the fronts, but we hear stories of you guys getting drunk. I'm not aiming this at you because I'm sure you're a nice girl, but can you pass it on. It's just something that's annoying some seniors or shall I say Alum. Other than that, we're proud of you guys, not too fond of some of the August leaders, but we're still proud. Have a safe year, and don't let anybody do stupid things to hurt themselves. Andrea, good luck on your finals. Oh, dealing with so many of my classmates and their problems, you did the right thing. It's better to hear things from someone who cares than not hesr anything at all. Cherish next year because it goes by so fast. If you lead a kairos, cherish those kids like they're your own. I still adore mine up til this day. In fact, one of your leaders was my kid . .. does that make you my grandkid? j/k. Have a great year.

[roarks_my_name]

who are you to say what kairos is for each and every person??? not a community for live journal? hey, sorry, we just wanted a way to easily keep in contact with all these people we have grown to really care about, and its something where we can continue to tell our problems and get advice... what's for show??? the fact that on any given weekend now we have 15 or 20 of us from 169 hanging out and truly just having fun together? do you not think its possible to have such a good kairos something like this happens? and so what if kids continue to get drunk? maybe they have too big of issues that its not something they want to confront just yet, or ever... kairos effects people in so many different ways, and so maybe drinking isn't the worst problem they have, think about it... and what's this "not too proud of some of the august leaders"??? does each one of them have to be saints to be able to lead? who knows, just wait till the kids get back and get their input, before you go and talk shit... for christs sakes, sorry you didn't have as good as a kairos as we did, but please don't comment on things you really don't know about, it just makes you look stupid... thanks

What is wrong with you!?

[drea_g4]

Hi, I don't know who you are or why you're reading my live journal, and if you know me you'll know that I'm not a very confontational person, but you did not just hate on my kairos group. Don't even go there with me. I guess you don't want a part of this crazy love. First of all where the hell do you get off critisizing anyone about how they're living the 4th!? No i don't get drunk, but if someone from my kairos wants to that's their decision and their choice, we still all love and support eachother for who we are, despite our flaws. Isn't that what Kairos is all about, unconditional love and acceptance? Maybe YOU'VE forgotten that, but i haven't. And we haven't let any of the secrets loose on live journal so if we wanna post, just leave us be and mind your own bussiness please. And we will NEVER stop with the "stupid kairos parties" we are a close group and if we wanna stay that way by getting together than shouldn't you be happy for us? maybe your kairos wasn't that close...if that's the case i truely am sorry cuz that sucks. but for you to sit there and shoot us down and critisize is shit,(and im not one to cuss) and if im not mistaken you guys continued to get drunk and party as well so get you nose out of the air and come back to reality. and you know what? we'll "annoy" you effing alum as much as we want, because if seeing us act like a family is annoying to you, than you disgust me and you better get used to it. We are soldiers, and anyone who went on kairos 169 will know what im talking about. You have no idea how much you've offened me. how dare you? it's people like you that kill the fuego. let us be. and anopther thing, you don't have to be proud of the august leaders because WE ARE. you don't know those people liek we do and for you to say that only shows immaturity and unneeded negativity. I hope the other seniors are aware that your speaking for them because i know for a fact that they do not agree. And you might hate to hear this, but it's not like leaders don't make mistakes too. so quit critisizing a spread the love! Best of luck to you in the real world...especially with that attitude. oh, and i have no idea what you're taling about with the "doing the right thing" bussiness, i do the best i can in letting ym friends know i care about them and will always be there, no matter what their flaws may be, because none of us a perfect. I'm sorry if i came off as a bitch in this post but you seriously offended me and i don't even know who you are. But listen, let it go and leave us alone, we're trying to keep it going the best we can, it isn't your job anymore, it's ours, and i promise you I'll try to keep the fuego alive, but you need to stop critisizing the way in hich we try to. good luck next year and if you care to post back, back off my kairos, cuz we kick ass.

Re: What is wrong with you!?

[anigav04]

To be honest, some of the things I agree with the senior and some I don't. The drinking part is dumb. People are going to drink no matter. Seniors did and so are you guys. It's up to you guys to help them out and take care of them because obviously you don't want to see a classmate in the hospital or god forbid . . . dead. Some of my class messed up big by letting our friends drive home drunk. One thing I don't agree with is so what if they get drunk. My best friend is constantly drunk, and it's because she has huge problems at home, but that doesn't mean I should let alcohol make her feel better. I was just like one of you guys because I was on the first junior kairos, and I was and still am head over heels for my kairos. I led with seven of them in August. Talk about amazing. Jen brandon and Frances Gatchalian are still my best friends. So, yeah, I don't blame you guys for wanting to keep in touch because I wouldn't mind to have that. Though I'm indifferent to the kairos community, as long as you guys take care of each other . . . who cares how you do it. Good lucks future seniors.

What IS wrong w/ you?!

[anonymous]

hi, so u dont know me either, but i will graduate next year. i dont understand why u care if kairos is on livejournal, we have our own lil community on LJ, and it has nothing to do w/ you, so why do u even care? And we're not revealing secrets if thats what ur worried about. besides, who are you to tell anyone what Kairos is and is not meant for? we're siply living out OUR 4th, and if u dont like the way it has been then i suggest u stay out of our business. And by the way, whatever parties u have been hearing about mainly have to deal w/ junior kairos retreatents who hadn't gone on kairos yet. Alongside with that, i would like to tell you that i do like how ur speaking for the whole senior class, or alums shall i say, Do they know this? because i know plenty of alums who arent upset w/ our junior kairoses. Oh ya, if you're so dissapointed w/ the August leaders, why don't you go to Campus ministry and select your own leaders, b/c if they were chosen obviously SOMEONE thinks they are valid leaders. You dont even know half these leaders they way the junior kairoses do. Oh and another thing you're basically judging ppl before you know them and stereotyping the junior kairoses and u dont even know them, is that what living the 4th is? Im sorry if your living the 4th hasn't been that great but mine has so please don't bag on other kairoses, im pretty sure nobody appreciates it. Keep your negative thoughts to yourself please. Good luck w/ your kairos ppl, and keep and open mind and open heart the next time u decide to pick a bone w/ past kairoses, that way whatever u say or do doesn't royally piss ppl off the way u just have.
oh ya, live the 4th please.