theatrical_muse Old Topics #4
What are your views on commitment?
I know she didn’t sleep with him because she loved him or didn’t love me. I didn’t leave because I thought so. I left because it was betrayal, dishonesty, and cruelty-three of my biggest pet peeves-rolled into one. You can’t live, let alone sleep in the same bed, with someone who does that to you. I needed away from her, from him, and from everything that reminded me of the multitude of emotions I felt on that night.
And so I sought revenge in Seattle. I was hurt, looking for someone to fill a void, as if to say, “Ha! Addison, who needs you?” and I found her in the form of Meredith Grey. We both were looking for one night stands, very attractive individuals, and evidently very drunk. We were perfect for each other-at least for one night. Incidentally, it would turn out that she was my intern and I was her boss.
I fell in love with her. I’m not sure when, or how, or any of the specifics, but I did-somewhere between her kicking me out the next morning and the time of Addison’s arrival in Washington. Thing is, I didn’t even realize I was in love with my girlfriend until my wife showed up. She made me not want to let go of Meredith.
But I did. You don’t make a commitment as big as “til death do you part” if you don’t mean it. Furthermore, you don’t break it if it can be helped. Addison is my wife. I’m not going to give up on that so easily. I don’t know if I love her, and I don’t know if I love Meredith. All I know is commitment to the vows. It’s my thing. It’s my shtick, if you will. It’s what I’m good at.
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