While I'm winding down on the productivity level, I might as well post the lyrics that keep bothering me. In a good way. In a necessary way. But they bother me none the less.
Oh, and if you look real close, you might find part of what's bothering me.
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You who live in heaven
Hear the prayers of those of us who live on earth
Who are
afraid of being left by those we loveAnd who get hardened by the hurt
Do you remember when You lived down here where we all scrape
To find the faith to ask for
daily breadDid You forget about us after You had flown away
Well I memorized every word You said
Still I'm so scared, I'm holding my breath
While You're up there just playing hard to get
You who live in radiance
Hear the prayers of those of us who live in skin
We have a love that's not as patient as Yours was
Still
we do love now and then Did You ever know loneliness
Did You ever know need
Do You remember just how long a night can get?
When You were barely holding on
And Your friends fall asleep
And don't see the blood that's running in Your sweat
Will those who mourn be left uncomfortedWhile You're up there just playing hard to get?
And I know you bore our sorrows
And I know you feel our pain
And I know it would not hurt any less
Even if it could be explained
And I know that I am only lashing out
At the One who loves me most
And after I figured this, somehow
All I really need to know
Is if You who live in eternity
Hear the prayers of those of us who live in time
We can't see what's ahead
And we can not get free of what we've left behind
I'm reeling from these voices that keep screaming in my ears
All the words of shame and doubt, blame and regret
I can't see how You're leading me unless You've led me here
Where I'm lost enough to let myself be led
And so
You've been here all along I guessIt's just Your ways and You are just plain hard to get