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Yes, I fucked up. But unfortunately for me I do have a life to dedicate myself to. I have a job and I have family that I need to be at and with. Sure friends are important to me but if they can't see that sometimes I am just really bad at knowing when dates are and what I have time for. Then fuck them and they can go to hell!
A few weeks ago, one of my soon to be housemates called me up and asked if I wanted to go to Canada some weekend. Like any kid that is above the age of 18 and under 21, I said that it was a great idea.
But one thing I have told people before is that I don't really have time to go on trips during the summer. I spend a lot of time at work and when I'm not at work I often like spending time on the lake and hanging out with my family. I have family that comes up from downstate and I'm really close to all of them. With all this time spent with family and work I don't really have much time for anyone else. One of my motto's from way back was that 'I have friends during school and during the summer I can just forget about them cause I just don't have time.' Although it has never worked out that way, I still see it as a plausible excuse. I just don't have the time, and the time that I do have is squeezed in. Now I'm not saying that I don't like to hang out with good friends during the summer season, but I just have to make due with what time I have.
So this great idea of my friend was to go to Canada for the weekend. Well the problem with planning trips is that you have to have a time when everyone can go. The people that have jobs have to schedual their time so that it doesn't interfere. Well I thought I had a good weekend in mind. I told the friend that was planning everything and he was going to set it all up. Well then I got to thinking and figured out that the weekend that I had picked was Memorial weekend. Now why didn't anyone say anything about it being that earlier? Why didn't someone ask: Isn't that Memorial day weekend? It seems that if you were planning to go on some trip and your buddy told you a holiday was a good time then you might say something. Well I guess this is just me trying to blame my own stupidity on someone else. But it seems that someone would say something.
I want to go on the trip but I don't think I'll have the time until June or July. I probably won't have anytime for Cedar Point.
I don't have any money and anything I make this summer will go towards college, cause I failed that class and my parents are pissed. My life is gone now. I can't have fun with what I've got. I want to do so many more things before college ends but I don't have..... Ah well what the hell do you care. It's just my fucking life. Why do people always want more?