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I'm starting to doubt my ability to adapt.
I really had a problem with Albany when I first moved here because I had no friends and no idea what to do.
Since that time I've fulfilled half of those things. Friends. I still have no idea what I'm doing out here, and I feel like
I'm wasting my life away on ordinary things. I feel like I'm just waiting out time, working to my grave.
Weekends are just for time to pass until I have to go back to work on mondays. While the time does pass by fast,
while at work, I suppose it's because I'm busy and have nothing else better to do anyhow. But the finer things
that are in life that I experienced with my parents before I was gainfully employed I feel neglected from now.
Trips. Vacations. Fun life in general. I feel like everything that I acquire, I have to work for, and work hard for.
168 hours available to my week, 40 of it I spend working. That's nearly a 25% of my life, it is also assumed that
the average human spends 50% of their life sleeping. So assuming that I sleep 12 hours of my night and 8 working,
which is rather unrealistic because I don't nearly sleep that much... 8 tops on a work night. that leaves a maximum of 8-10 hours a day
doing things that I want to do with my life.
I just feel like I'm counting down the time I have until I die, wasting it working... FOR SOMEONE ELSE no less.
I really had a problem with Albany when I first moved here because I had no friends and no idea what to do.
Since that time I've fulfilled half of those things. Friends. I still have no idea what I'm doing out here, and I feel like
I'm wasting my life away on ordinary things. I feel like I'm just waiting out time, working to my grave.
Weekends are just for time to pass until I have to go back to work on mondays. While the time does pass by fast,
while at work, I suppose it's because I'm busy and have nothing else better to do anyhow. But the finer things
that are in life that I experienced with my parents before I was gainfully employed I feel neglected from now.
Trips. Vacations. Fun life in general. I feel like everything that I acquire, I have to work for, and work hard for.
168 hours available to my week, 40 of it I spend working. That's nearly a 25% of my life, it is also assumed that
the average human spends 50% of their life sleeping. So assuming that I sleep 12 hours of my night and 8 working,
which is rather unrealistic because I don't nearly sleep that much... 8 tops on a work night. that leaves a maximum of 8-10 hours a day
doing things that I want to do with my life.
I just feel like I'm counting down the time I have until I die, wasting it working... FOR SOMEONE ELSE no less.