and with sleep comes dreams.
It was all sooo good..
but ya know.. life is dumb like that and I had to go have wonderful dreams about ryan and being with him again..
just means my subconscience won't relent.
IT WILL DAMNIT! hahaha
i have decided.
haha
and then he had to message me tonight.
how dumb
I wish he would just stay away.
He better not message me tomorrow.
That would be..
ick.
hahahahaha
hmmm.. mmm.. i need hot boys to cuddle with.. even if it is just a pretty face..
maybe for once i need it to just be that.. just a pretty face.. and well.. not screw it up.. realize it for what it was (like ryan) and not screw up it (unlike ryan) hahaha
wellllllll
off to bed and good books.
but ya know.. life is dumb like that and I had to go have wonderful dreams about ryan and being with him again..
just means my subconscience won't relent.
IT WILL DAMNIT! hahaha
i have decided.
haha
and then he had to message me tonight.
how dumb
I wish he would just stay away.
He better not message me tomorrow.
That would be..
ick.
hahahahaha
hmmm.. mmm.. i need hot boys to cuddle with.. even if it is just a pretty face..
maybe for once i need it to just be that.. just a pretty face.. and well.. not screw it up.. realize it for what it was (like ryan) and not screw up it (unlike ryan) hahaha
wellllllll
off to bed and good books.