hmm warding off all mean people
Me and ryan are trying this friend thing.
It makes my stomach churn.
Sometimes it makes me happy that we arent together.. sometimes i dont feel "beautiful" enough for him.. like i have to starve myself to feel like im appealling.
maybe because his "standards" involve perky tits and hip bones.
Anyways.
Guy came over tonight. creepy and not my type.. just creepy because his eyes kept trying to meet mine.. he was too much the nice guy.. but nerdy so not at all right.. he felt off and it made me want to throw up
ick.
i hope ego john wants to come over and keep me company.. maybe.. just maybe.
It makes my stomach churn.
Sometimes it makes me happy that we arent together.. sometimes i dont feel "beautiful" enough for him.. like i have to starve myself to feel like im appealling.
maybe because his "standards" involve perky tits and hip bones.
Anyways.
Guy came over tonight. creepy and not my type.. just creepy because his eyes kept trying to meet mine.. he was too much the nice guy.. but nerdy so not at all right.. he felt off and it made me want to throw up
ick.
i hope ego john wants to come over and keep me company.. maybe.. just maybe.