words are nothing without actions
Well last night we talked. Well i guess. I dunno. Still no conclusions really. Friends and then maybe more?
Maybe. But maybe not after tonight.
We had talked about me kidnapping him.. i do want to see him.. but i cant leave tink over night by herself.. the crux of having a long distance "friendship"
soooo lately dad has been around, so it hasnt been an issue.
Anyways.. so i was going to kidnapp him maybe, yes?
and then all of a sudden he is throwing a party at his house.. and I .. perhaps.. was the last to be invited.. even with him knowing that i cant come and spend the night..
i could go.. not drink.. but i cant even smoke there.
nah its not worth it..
not worth going there to feel lonely and out of place.
Im just angry that our plans were dropped, without even talking about it.
I feel ditched..
and angry.
Oh well.. just goes to show, words arent anything to anyone anymore.
lies lies lies.
hmm well when he is not happy that i have not seen him in weeks, that will be his fault. I leave on thursday night after class. I doubt i will have the time to see him before then.. oh well.. his choice, not mine.
And while i was considering coming home early so that i could spend some time with him, i dont know if it really matters anymore.
Its a pity he has my books.. it means i have to see him again.
bah. maybe i should go tonight and get it over with.
Maybe.
or maybe i will just go home and curl up alonein the house and try to fight off the depression
What a great way to spend my saturday night.
oh well.. maybe its best that he didnt come here tonight.. it would have just ended badly.
Radio Silence.
Maybe. But maybe not after tonight.
We had talked about me kidnapping him.. i do want to see him.. but i cant leave tink over night by herself.. the crux of having a long distance "friendship"
soooo lately dad has been around, so it hasnt been an issue.
Anyways.. so i was going to kidnapp him maybe, yes?
and then all of a sudden he is throwing a party at his house.. and I .. perhaps.. was the last to be invited.. even with him knowing that i cant come and spend the night..
i could go.. not drink.. but i cant even smoke there.
nah its not worth it..
not worth going there to feel lonely and out of place.
Im just angry that our plans were dropped, without even talking about it.
I feel ditched..
and angry.
Oh well.. just goes to show, words arent anything to anyone anymore.
lies lies lies.
hmm well when he is not happy that i have not seen him in weeks, that will be his fault. I leave on thursday night after class. I doubt i will have the time to see him before then.. oh well.. his choice, not mine.
And while i was considering coming home early so that i could spend some time with him, i dont know if it really matters anymore.
Its a pity he has my books.. it means i have to see him again.
bah. maybe i should go tonight and get it over with.
Maybe.
or maybe i will just go home and curl up alonein the house and try to fight off the depression
What a great way to spend my saturday night.
oh well.. maybe its best that he didnt come here tonight.. it would have just ended badly.
Radio Silence.