the day I fucked it all up.........
Today was a good day until I fucked it up with not 1 but 2 really good friends.One of them gave me another chance and the other Im not sure about yet but she is one of the most beautiful people Ive ever met.I just cant stop thinking about in my mind,I mean how and why did I say such a thing and act that way."I FUCKED it up"
I cant figure it out,just when everything was cool and we'd talked about everything the night before.I felt really good about it too,now I feel like balling up in a corner and dieing I just cant stop thinking about it.The worst part is that I really loved her and I hurt her,I just cant believe this shit.I told them "I hope you all fuckin die" thats about the worst thing you can say to someone and I said it to my friends and abby,not meaning to.Its like I just through it at them without thinking.Now I feel like Im the one that deserves to,it just hurts WTF was I thinking "I have to make a change" because Im just fucked up.This cant be me,I wont let it be.Today if someone were to have called me an asshole I would have said"yes..yes I am"like its cool or something.Well I was a fuckin JERK today and Im not,""I WONT LET MYSELF BE THIS WAY ANYMORE".Abby Im soooooo sorry really,id I do anything to make it up to you.Please believe me when I say I didnt mean that,and that I cant explain why I said that."I messed up so bad" Please forgive me Abby because I wont forgive myself until you do.You so didnt deserve that and I know it.Ill do anything Abby,but please dont stop being my friend.
I cant figure it out,just when everything was cool and we'd talked about everything the night before.I felt really good about it too,now I feel like balling up in a corner and dieing I just cant stop thinking about it.The worst part is that I really loved her and I hurt her,I just cant believe this shit.I told them "I hope you all fuckin die" thats about the worst thing you can say to someone and I said it to my friends and abby,not meaning to.Its like I just through it at them without thinking.Now I feel like Im the one that deserves to,it just hurts WTF was I thinking "I have to make a change" because Im just fucked up.This cant be me,I wont let it be.Today if someone were to have called me an asshole I would have said"yes..yes I am"like its cool or something.Well I was a fuckin JERK today and Im not,""I WONT LET MYSELF BE THIS WAY ANYMORE".Abby Im soooooo sorry really,id I do anything to make it up to you.Please believe me when I say I didnt mean that,and that I cant explain why I said that."I messed up so bad" Please forgive me Abby because I wont forgive myself until you do.You so didnt deserve that and I know it.Ill do anything Abby,but please dont stop being my friend.