Feeling
I think i know what hurts now.
A thorn sticks my side when i think of her.
She did so many things to me.
She made me smile.
She gave me hope.
She gave me Love.
She took her love away.
She used me for her own pleasures and never returned the favor.
She Ruind who i am and who i was.
Now i am forced to feel.
The above is the past.
I found something in Michigan i found joy, i found love from my family i never knew was there.
I found a bit more spirituality.
I found a smile on my face most of the time i was there.
She is almost gone from my mind i can feel her slipping away.
People tell me i need to find my own way out of this gunk
They are right...
So i have decided on anger
Anger makes the pain go away more and more each day.
I want nothing to do with her. I dont want to hear her name. I dont want to smell her scent. I dont want to feel her insides. I dont her crappy version of love. I dont want anything she offers me, whether it be tickets to a show or kindness.
I now have a reason to be angery i find and it brings me peace.
i have a chance to be with 2 girls one is Tori and one is a girl named Nicole. The great thing is i honestly dont care if they want to be with me.
That however is only half true.
I will not turn them away and i will not hold back any feelings i find i might have for them, but i also will not let them hold me back and i will not base my life on there interest in me.
I am Strong
I am Great
I am beautiful
I am Sweet
I am kind
I am Cute
I am all i need to be...
I look into the night sky alone. I know i will be just fine.
Whether i am alone for the rest of my life or whether i find the one to stand with me.
A thorn sticks my side when i think of her.
She did so many things to me.
She made me smile.
She gave me hope.
She gave me Love.
She took her love away.
She used me for her own pleasures and never returned the favor.
She Ruind who i am and who i was.
Now i am forced to feel.
The above is the past.
I found something in Michigan i found joy, i found love from my family i never knew was there.
I found a bit more spirituality.
I found a smile on my face most of the time i was there.
She is almost gone from my mind i can feel her slipping away.
People tell me i need to find my own way out of this gunk
They are right...
So i have decided on anger
Anger makes the pain go away more and more each day.
I want nothing to do with her. I dont want to hear her name. I dont want to smell her scent. I dont want to feel her insides. I dont her crappy version of love. I dont want anything she offers me, whether it be tickets to a show or kindness.
I now have a reason to be angery i find and it brings me peace.
i have a chance to be with 2 girls one is Tori and one is a girl named Nicole. The great thing is i honestly dont care if they want to be with me.
That however is only half true.
I will not turn them away and i will not hold back any feelings i find i might have for them, but i also will not let them hold me back and i will not base my life on there interest in me.
I am Strong
I am Great
I am beautiful
I am Sweet
I am kind
I am Cute
I am all i need to be...
I look into the night sky alone. I know i will be just fine.
Whether i am alone for the rest of my life or whether i find the one to stand with me.