Haze
For some reason nothing brings me true joy. Even the happiness of my very best friend doesnt comfort me, hours of WoW leveling gainning power, drinking till i cant stand steady, or even the ocasional cigaret. I looked in the mirror today and a new face appeared one i had not seen before.
This face was cold to say the least:
His eye's were dark and heavy his hair unkept and uncared for, his clothes fit him perfectly and a smile did not come to his lips. This person is who i have become i feel like adam tossed from paradise i feel sick to the core and always dark. I dont feel i have a really creative way to vent my pain so i turn inwards and toss and turn every night trying to forget. My mind is numb and to take the time up i smoke a cigaret, work, or just play WoW.
I need to find a beacon in this darkness something to strive for but i see no light in the horizon of the path that i tread, only darkness.
So i turn inwards yet again:
Why cant i be loved?
Whats wrong with me?
What more do i have to do in life to warrant my exisitance?
Why do i persist?
Where do i go from here?
How do i fight this darkness?
Who will save me from this pain?
Vnv Nation "Who will carry me?"
Off i go to drown myself in a game. Please dont take offence to this when you read this. I have nothing left but to waste my time till my end.
I honestly feel ill never shine again. Time will tell though wont it?
Good bye
This face was cold to say the least:
His eye's were dark and heavy his hair unkept and uncared for, his clothes fit him perfectly and a smile did not come to his lips. This person is who i have become i feel like adam tossed from paradise i feel sick to the core and always dark. I dont feel i have a really creative way to vent my pain so i turn inwards and toss and turn every night trying to forget. My mind is numb and to take the time up i smoke a cigaret, work, or just play WoW.
I need to find a beacon in this darkness something to strive for but i see no light in the horizon of the path that i tread, only darkness.
So i turn inwards yet again:
Why cant i be loved?
Whats wrong with me?
What more do i have to do in life to warrant my exisitance?
Why do i persist?
Where do i go from here?
How do i fight this darkness?
Who will save me from this pain?
Vnv Nation "Who will carry me?"
Off i go to drown myself in a game. Please dont take offence to this when you read this. I have nothing left but to waste my time till my end.
I honestly feel ill never shine again. Time will tell though wont it?
Good bye