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i thought it was too good to be true i found somebody who understands me someone who would help me to get through and fill an emptiness i had inside me but you kept inside and I just denied some things that we should have both said i knew it was too good to be true cause i'm the only one who understands me what happened to us we used to be so perfect, now we're lost and lonely what happened to us and deep inside I wonder, did i lose my only? remember they thought we were too young to really know what it takes to make it but we had survived off what we have done so we could show them all that they're mistaken but who could have known the lies that would grow until we could see right through them remember they knew we were too young we still don't know what it takes to make it we could have made it work, we could have found a way, we should have done our best to see another day but we kept it all inside until it was too late and now we're both alone, the consequence we pay for throwing it all away, for throwing it all away...

alex told me to listen to that song. he was right. i was wrong. in the last 6 months i have made nothing but mistakes. everything i have done has been a mistake. every word i have said has been the wrong ones. it was his 18th yesterday. i should have been the girl on his arm. we loved each other and i never doubted he loved me. not once through the year and a half. fuck. i have to go. i have to go and see him. i have go to town and see him now. now. fuck. this makes no sense and is random, i dont care. pointless entries are the best. yeah.