stuff
So im going on my second longest relationship and it is still going strong despite the many bumps along the way. (we got together during my parent's divorce and ensuing reign of destruction which hasnt really eased, its just less obvious. then two months after being boyfriend and girlfriend i have to move three hours away from him. and now we are living together and have been living together for a little over a month. and well that's a whole new relationship.)
i am excited to see where this goes. it hasn't been easy, and i guess its not supposed to be. but when i really feel stressed and upset and lonely and worried and all sorts of things, jon does something amazing. nothing huge mind you, but just something that always lets me know where i stand. he always lets me know that hes in my corner. and i havent had that kind of support in so long.
i feel good about my relationship. there's a good foundation there. one made of friendship and respect and mutual affection. and from there, a love more deep than any i could have imagined. although auti and manda are right in saying that you dont always like them. LOL
this is one of the hardest things i have ever had to do. moving in with a signifigant other IS a big deal. i remember tab telling me it wasn't. but thats not the case at all. you have to really think about it and really make sure its right because otherwise it blows up in your face.
i almost made that mistake. luckily he dumped me. twice....
but i feel at home here. and i know that jon does too. its a place we are building together and its ours equally which i LOVE.
i feel good. i feel very strongly that this relationship will last an incredibly long time.
my apartment is fucking wonderful. its spacious and cozy all at the same time and is slowly but surely coming together. sometimes i wish i could have done the whole living completely by myself thing but i really like coming home and seeing my boyfriend sprawled on our bed with his glasses, studying or reading or watching a movie. he gives me privacy if i want it so hes not up my ass all the time and vice versa.
i love coming home and going into the kitchen with its french doors and crystal door knobs. i love our hardwood floors and our tacky ass bright crimson door. i love the brightness that comes into our living room when the sun rises in the morning. i even love putting my key in to the lock. because it is MY key. to our, which means in part MINE apartment. the only thing is is that if i come home with jon he likes to open the door so we actually end up racing to our apartment to see who gets to put their key in the lock. we're such dorks.
it really is a lovely place.
i am currently working nights as a cook at a calzone place. it is hard going on my body and its been rough on me mentally as well. but its money. and i am greatful for it. plus my boss is very laid back and understanding and it means that i can still do karate on the weekends. and they are all a bunch of geeks its like if the healy house ran a business. all gamer geeks and lost fans. :) LOL and of course supernatural. cause its all about team winchester baby. :) it'll do for now.
yes i am going back to school. getting the ball rolling on that now. i am terrified....its been years since ive been in school. but shit...it's so worth it.
still not doing to good with the divorce. and i still miss my mother horribly and she barely talks to me which hurts more than i can say here because this is not meant to be an angsty post. but i am working through it. if my nightmares are any indication i am working through my family issues. i am hoping to come out okay. and sometimes i get scared that i wont come out in one piece at the end of this.
and right now that is it in a nutshell. all in all i have a bright future ahead of me. and i am looking forward to it. i just have to learn to let go of some baggage that i dont need.
i am excited to see where this goes. it hasn't been easy, and i guess its not supposed to be. but when i really feel stressed and upset and lonely and worried and all sorts of things, jon does something amazing. nothing huge mind you, but just something that always lets me know where i stand. he always lets me know that hes in my corner. and i havent had that kind of support in so long.
i feel good about my relationship. there's a good foundation there. one made of friendship and respect and mutual affection. and from there, a love more deep than any i could have imagined. although auti and manda are right in saying that you dont always like them. LOL
this is one of the hardest things i have ever had to do. moving in with a signifigant other IS a big deal. i remember tab telling me it wasn't. but thats not the case at all. you have to really think about it and really make sure its right because otherwise it blows up in your face.
i almost made that mistake. luckily he dumped me. twice....
but i feel at home here. and i know that jon does too. its a place we are building together and its ours equally which i LOVE.
i feel good. i feel very strongly that this relationship will last an incredibly long time.
my apartment is fucking wonderful. its spacious and cozy all at the same time and is slowly but surely coming together. sometimes i wish i could have done the whole living completely by myself thing but i really like coming home and seeing my boyfriend sprawled on our bed with his glasses, studying or reading or watching a movie. he gives me privacy if i want it so hes not up my ass all the time and vice versa.
i love coming home and going into the kitchen with its french doors and crystal door knobs. i love our hardwood floors and our tacky ass bright crimson door. i love the brightness that comes into our living room when the sun rises in the morning. i even love putting my key in to the lock. because it is MY key. to our, which means in part MINE apartment. the only thing is is that if i come home with jon he likes to open the door so we actually end up racing to our apartment to see who gets to put their key in the lock. we're such dorks.
it really is a lovely place.
i am currently working nights as a cook at a calzone place. it is hard going on my body and its been rough on me mentally as well. but its money. and i am greatful for it. plus my boss is very laid back and understanding and it means that i can still do karate on the weekends. and they are all a bunch of geeks its like if the healy house ran a business. all gamer geeks and lost fans. :) LOL and of course supernatural. cause its all about team winchester baby. :) it'll do for now.
yes i am going back to school. getting the ball rolling on that now. i am terrified....its been years since ive been in school. but shit...it's so worth it.
still not doing to good with the divorce. and i still miss my mother horribly and she barely talks to me which hurts more than i can say here because this is not meant to be an angsty post. but i am working through it. if my nightmares are any indication i am working through my family issues. i am hoping to come out okay. and sometimes i get scared that i wont come out in one piece at the end of this.
and right now that is it in a nutshell. all in all i have a bright future ahead of me. and i am looking forward to it. i just have to learn to let go of some baggage that i dont need.