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The last two... yay! And going to sleep beacause tomorrow I go to work... on saturday. It sucks!
OK, work still sucks but this lj too, it wants me to divide this post into two I guess. Evil thing!
„Vellu!“ Anssi exclaimed into his phone so loudly I had to put mine further from my ear. He answered my call immediately as if he was waiting with his phone in his hand.
„Hey, little one,“ I greeted him the most cheerfully I could. And still, I was able to hear a soft sniff.
„I'm 11th, Vellu...“
„I know, Anssi...“ I said gently, „you did really well, you know...“
„But... but it's not fair!“ I could imagine Anssi was pouting, „I wanted to do better...“
„Come on, Anssi! You were fighting! And I'm proud of you...“
„Are you?“
„Sure I am.“ I had to smile. Anssi was so eager to be appreciated. „And above, this hill's too small for you. You're a flier!“
„Like you, Vellu!“ Anssi giggled.
„Yep.“ I laughed. In this season I'm everything except a flier... And yet, Anssi still sees me as his hero. It feels nice...
„And Vellu...? Do you think I can do better on the large hill, in sprint or in team competition?“
„Definitely!“ I was really sure about that.
„Even if they all say the hills in Pragellato are bad? And the wind?“
„I know, the hills are really terrible down there... But they're the same for everyone, aren't they? And I know you'll be incredibly good!“
„I will... I had a cold couple of days ago, but I think I'm OK now...“
„It can get only better now, Anssi,“ I agreed.
„ I hope so... It's so much cold here in the Olympic Village...“
„Oh, poor little Anssi! Take care not to get frozen, will you?“ I tried to distract him and it worked as Anssi started to giggle.
„So you don't think I was too disappointing, Vellu?“
„No way!“ I refused.
„Ok...“ I could almost hear the stone sitting on Anssi's heart to fall down.
„I'm glad you called me, Vellu...“
„Why should't I?“ I wondered.
„I don't know. You know, you're the only one who called after the race...“
„Come on, you'll get some more calls, Anssi...“
He muttered something and I realized it's already a few hours after the competition.
„Not even our mom?“ I asked.
„Oh... yeah, she sent me a message, saying she didn't know when I could talk, and that she'll call me in the evening...“
He again sounded like this little lost boy.
„And then only you called, Vellu... Nobody else bothers! Nobody loves me...“
„Oh, little Anssi, please!“ I was smiling, „there's of course a huge lot of those who love you...“
„Nooo...“ he was almost whining.
„Come on, everyone has to love you, really!“
„Hmmm...“ Most definitely Anssi was pouting.
„And Vellu... do you love me?“
„I do...“ I answered immediately and that exact moment it was indeed true, I knew I really loved him.
How could I be so blind? So ignorant? So stupid? Suddenly I felt so easy, so light-headed, I loved that feeling of being in love.
This moment I heard a gasp on the other end and I panicked. Anssi wasn't supposed to know! He... he just wasn't.
„Anssi, please, can you just... just forget what I said?“ I asked carefully.
„I... I can't...“ Anssi whispered.
„But Anssi!“ I was pleading and then Anssi started giggling sotly. „Me too, Vellu...“
I just sighed. I knew he loved me but he saw everything so easy...
„My little Anssi... I don't know... if we can... if I can! You're so young...“
Anssi made a protesting sound. „But... but Vellu! I... I love you. And you said you loved me too...“
„I do love you, little one...“ I interupted his tirade, „I just... I don't know what to do... what's the best for you...“
„Best for me? This, Vellu! Just love me and let me... let me love you back...“
„Anssi...“
He was begging so pretty, and what if he was right? What if the easiest way was the best? We could be so happy together...
„I love you, Vellu, I love you, I love you...“
„Anssi...!“
„I love you...“ he kept repeating, giggling among the words, „I love you, I love you...“
„You brat!“ I started laughing, and we laughed together, and I had never felt this happy before. He was simply irresistible. My Anssi. My little angel. Impish angel...
„I love you so much, my little one...“
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OK, work still sucks but this lj too, it wants me to divide this post into two I guess. Evil thing!
„Vellu!“ Anssi exclaimed into his phone so loudly I had to put mine further from my ear. He answered my call immediately as if he was waiting with his phone in his hand.
„Hey, little one,“ I greeted him the most cheerfully I could. And still, I was able to hear a soft sniff.
„I'm 11th, Vellu...“
„I know, Anssi...“ I said gently, „you did really well, you know...“
„But... but it's not fair!“ I could imagine Anssi was pouting, „I wanted to do better...“
„Come on, Anssi! You were fighting! And I'm proud of you...“
„Are you?“
„Sure I am.“ I had to smile. Anssi was so eager to be appreciated. „And above, this hill's too small for you. You're a flier!“
„Like you, Vellu!“ Anssi giggled.
„Yep.“ I laughed. In this season I'm everything except a flier... And yet, Anssi still sees me as his hero. It feels nice...
„And Vellu...? Do you think I can do better on the large hill, in sprint or in team competition?“
„Definitely!“ I was really sure about that.
„Even if they all say the hills in Pragellato are bad? And the wind?“
„I know, the hills are really terrible down there... But they're the same for everyone, aren't they? And I know you'll be incredibly good!“
„I will... I had a cold couple of days ago, but I think I'm OK now...“
„It can get only better now, Anssi,“ I agreed.
„ I hope so... It's so much cold here in the Olympic Village...“
„Oh, poor little Anssi! Take care not to get frozen, will you?“ I tried to distract him and it worked as Anssi started to giggle.
„So you don't think I was too disappointing, Vellu?“
„No way!“ I refused.
„Ok...“ I could almost hear the stone sitting on Anssi's heart to fall down.
„I'm glad you called me, Vellu...“
„Why should't I?“ I wondered.
„I don't know. You know, you're the only one who called after the race...“
„Come on, you'll get some more calls, Anssi...“
He muttered something and I realized it's already a few hours after the competition.
„Not even our mom?“ I asked.
„Oh... yeah, she sent me a message, saying she didn't know when I could talk, and that she'll call me in the evening...“
He again sounded like this little lost boy.
„And then only you called, Vellu... Nobody else bothers! Nobody loves me...“
„Oh, little Anssi, please!“ I was smiling, „there's of course a huge lot of those who love you...“
„Nooo...“ he was almost whining.
„Come on, everyone has to love you, really!“
„Hmmm...“ Most definitely Anssi was pouting.
„And Vellu... do you love me?“
„I do...“ I answered immediately and that exact moment it was indeed true, I knew I really loved him.
How could I be so blind? So ignorant? So stupid? Suddenly I felt so easy, so light-headed, I loved that feeling of being in love.
This moment I heard a gasp on the other end and I panicked. Anssi wasn't supposed to know! He... he just wasn't.
„Anssi, please, can you just... just forget what I said?“ I asked carefully.
„I... I can't...“ Anssi whispered.
„But Anssi!“ I was pleading and then Anssi started giggling sotly. „Me too, Vellu...“
I just sighed. I knew he loved me but he saw everything so easy...
„My little Anssi... I don't know... if we can... if I can! You're so young...“
Anssi made a protesting sound. „But... but Vellu! I... I love you. And you said you loved me too...“
„I do love you, little one...“ I interupted his tirade, „I just... I don't know what to do... what's the best for you...“
„Best for me? This, Vellu! Just love me and let me... let me love you back...“
„Anssi...“
He was begging so pretty, and what if he was right? What if the easiest way was the best? We could be so happy together...
„I love you, Vellu, I love you, I love you...“
„Anssi...!“
„I love you...“ he kept repeating, giggling among the words, „I love you, I love you...“
„You brat!“ I started laughing, and we laughed together, and I had never felt this happy before. He was simply irresistible. My Anssi. My little angel. Impish angel...
„I love you so much, my little one...“
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